The last few days had been…Well he didn’t really want to think about it too much. He didn’t need that on top of everything else that had been on his mind but he couldn’t unhear the words that Tag had spoken to him. With his thoughts of Des creeping in at every available moment and Tagg’s confession to him Kajika was ready to run from the cove that very moment but he knew that he couldn’t. He had worked too hard to secure his place in the pack and was trying to gain the role of teacher, he wasn’t ready to give all of that up.

Deciding the best way to try and keep his mind busy hunting had been his choice of activities, having to concentrate on the tracking and the chase kept his mind busy enough that he didn’t have to think about his whole world spinning out of control. He had forgone patrolling for hunting that beta had spent all morning hunting and had been successful. It was only one rabbit but that was on purpose. Not wanting the hunt to end too quickly he had drug it out as long as he could. With the rabbit hanging from his jaws he made his way to the cache to drop it there before going to the den for some rest which he hoped would be that and not a constant barrage of nightmares that would keep him up as they always did.

However, just as he stepped out of the trees into the clearing by the communal den he wanted to turn that very instant. What he saw, Moonshadow and Tagg together…he wasn’t in the mood to place nice. Yet he had no choice in the matter they couldn’t know. He took another step out from the trees in the direction of the den hoping he could just slip inside and not be noticed but then changed his mind and started to turn to go.

He didn’t know if Tagg had talked with Moonshadow like he said he was going to but Kajika had the feeling that he had in fact said something to his student. It was the only way he could explain their current behavior and the thought of it made his chest tighten. He took a deep breath trying to calm himself as he watched the two of them play fight. Though frolick may have been more appropriate considering they were acting like pups. The shore of the lake no matter how cold it was started looking better with each passing moment. >

That was where he intended to go, they were so busy being caught up in themselves that they wouldn’t notice he had been there for the few moments he had. They also wouldn’t notice his retreating form through the trees. How terribly wrong he was because just as he was about to go he heard Taggs voice behind him calling his name. With another deep breath and a moment to gather himself he finally turned around. “Is there something you needed Tagg?” he asked trying to keep any emotion he felt about the current situation from his tone. They couldn’t know how he truly felt, Tagg had admitted his feeling for Moonshadow and it seemed she felt the same toward him. He wouldn’t be the one to ruin anything especially if it was what Moonshadow wanted.

He couldn’t leave now as that would be rather rude since he had been noticed but he knew he couldn’t face them with what he was currently feeling. He had to get it together so he took a moment before finally turning and asking if Tagg needed anything. He truly didn’t want to be there and then when the tawny male showed his affection to Moonshadow Kajika had to turn his head and gather himself once more. The sound of footfalls brought his attention back to the pair as he waited for Tagg to tell him what he had called to him for. However, the tawny male stopped short of reaching the place where Kajika stood at the tree line.

The beta waited for the man to speak his gaze did not drift to Moonshadow but stayed fixed on Tagg waiting for the man to speak. The dark furred man was relieved when he was finally spoken to hoping he could get out of this horrible experience a little sooner. As it was the tawny mal saw fit to thank the beta for his advice, “You’re welcome, I’m still glad that you were able to come to me for help,” He said genuinely offering a nod. Even though he wasn’t exactly happy about the results the fact that Tagg had thought of him when he had a problem was still appreciated. He glanced at Moonshadow when Tagg looked back at her, he wasn’t ready to deal with her just then and most certainly not in front of Tagg but he did see the concern in her eyes but he couldn’t fix it this time and there wasn’t anything he knew to say to take that look out of her eyes. “I’m glad I could help and I’m happy for the both of you,” he said again trying to not let what he was feeling to engulf the words. He had to keep it down for them, he may have lost his chance but that didn’t meant that they had to lose theirs.

The desire to be anywhere but where he was at that moment only grew stronger until he had to force himself to stay just a bit longer so that it didn’t seem like there was something wrong. And then It only got worse as words that Kajika wasn’t sure were true fell from the man’s mouth, ‘You’re a true friend’ he didn’t feel much like it but he plastered a smile on his face, “Thank you,” was all that he could get out in regards to that.