give this song a listen, please.

The simplest and most eloquent truth was that she was gone. He had spent weeks running after her, chasing invisible wisps of ghostly white that tempted his eyes as she vanished into the air. He couldn't breath for all of the truth in his lungs, he flailed, spitting and kicking, drowning in feelings without names, a wounded animal. He could not close his eyes for the fear that he would miss some little clue. He could not stop, he could not breath, he couldn't do a damn thing, and it was all his fault. And more than anything, more than the pain of her absence caused, he felt the eerie, black, fullness of confusion as he stared the truth that could not possibly be true full in the face: he had been forsaken by God, but he was more hurt because she was gone. It hurt more than anything to realize that he loved her, that he loved her more than God. And all he could do was drown in the sable waters, warm like blood, thrashing and calling out.

Mourning flowed and trickled from his mouth, spilling over the ground and splashing back into his eyes and he plodded in the dim haze of dawn. The sound was so rounded and full, the cry of a heathen, the call of the wild, the howl of a wolf. He could not find it in him to care anymore. The wet, gossamer fog tripped him up as he walked, filling his nostrils with a heavy dampness. He choked on every breath, every note. She was not here, and he could not even bring himself to find the words to describe the loss. He had tried, before, of course. But the harder he tried the more futile it became, trying to drain the ocean with a teacup, trying to fit borrowed clothes onto meanings that were too big or too small. He settled for just a blunt phrase, an observation of reality: she was gone. Where ever he was, she was not. Kiche was here, and Aisiling was somewhere else. And as for Pangur, well, he tried not to think about Pangur. He did not wish to come to terms with the sad truth as he stumbled and scrambled through the clotted, mesmerizing mists.

ooc: i fucking love mumford & sons <3

Though she didn't mean to pry, after minutes of watching the brute in question, her heart went out to him, and she wanted to help him. She had been crouched in some sort of underbrush for a short while, confused as to why the man was so upset. Her eyes of green, blue and grey watched intently, herself almost hurt as well. Her paws trembled and shook, her body aching to step out of hiding and to help this poor male. But what if he would hurt her out of the fury that he had been gathering? What if he only wanted to mourn? If that's what he was even doing..

She took a deep breath and took a few steps forward, revealing her white coat to the air around. Aaqila's eyes peered at him, and she forced herself to mumble out a few jumbled words, "Are you okay?" she questioned, voice slightly shaky, not quite sure if she had made the right decision yet. Was she afraid? Yes. Her tail was towered, as were her ears, to offer the fact that she wasn't going to try to fight. The wind blew lightly through her fur, an air of calm and reassurance. Whether the male wanted her help or not, she convinced herself that she had made the right decision by making her appearance known.