Her anxiety had been at an all time high since she'd traveled from Ritter.  A new place new wolves it was something that terrified her while her past didn't follow her around like it had in her old home it was still there.  Always in the back of her mind reminding her of all that could go wrong and her only comfort was that she was back with those who were familiar to her, those who had never hurt her. Most importantly she’d been reunited with Mittani, her protector and her comfort.

She'd been lightly dozing when his voice reached her ears, sweet though demanding all the same she would never ignore the order for her presence.  Raising her short frame to its full height she went to him as she always did.  His whisper carried to her as if on the wind as she approached mirrored her own feelings. She needed him as much as he needed her.

“Mittani my sweet, I need you too” she said quietly as she came to him pressing her face into the fur of his chest, taking in his scent. A scent that had comforted her so many times in the past after her children and husband were gone. “What troubles you so?” She had felt his tension as soon as she’d been close causing her tail to tuck under her.

She needed him as much as he needed her in that moment and more, the future unpredictable for the two of them. Cheedo didn't know what they faced but she knew that her life could change and she didn't know how. The thought of it cause a tremble to run through her body and there he was like a knight in shining armor. Always there always willing to protect her and yet so careful with her despite the anger she knew he could possess. She did not fear it, one of the few things she didn't fear in her life.

Her question had gone unanswered as far as any details but instead was answered when he placed his head over hers. Her eyes closed at his touch as she tried to calm her nerves by breathing in his scent. The sensation of his nose tracing her ear was one gesture that made a smile cross her maw. The injured ear she felt so worried it would make her undesirable yet Mittani didn't care. He wanted her to go with her, it was said as more of a request than an order still she would go with him, “Of course I will go with you,” she assured her tone quiet before a chuff left her lips in response to his nip. She followed him to the place he found more comfortable for them to talk.

When they had reached a more private place he spoke once more of them needing to talk, that he was worried. “I am worried as well,” but she probably didn't need to tell him that, “Please tell me what worries you so Mittani?” She asked brushing her nose along his jaw hoping to calm him some. She knew his temper well and did not want him to do something that would cause him harm.

Over the years she had been there always to hear what was bothering him do what she could to be there for him.  Whether she had constantly been by his side or not she'd always been there for him as he had for her, this was no different. She knew he understood why she couldn't always be there in Ritter but this place was different.  Cheedo didn't have to face the memories everywhere she went.

She told him that she too was worried but let him voice his worries first as he was the one to call her to talk first.  Cheedo knew from his tone and the way his gaze had settled on hers that he was very serious.  She nodded as he told her he respected her but was keen to let her know her answer could carry emotional consequences. Her ears flattened and she lowered her body, “I understand Mittani,” she stated her voice almost a whisper. The question that followed was one she should have expected they had grown close it was only natural for him to want to know.  It was the same thing that had been worrying her and now she had to face a choice she didn't know if she could make right then. Still for him she had to give an answer. “I choose you Mittani but now that we know he is alive I am still his wife and I will have to go back to him if he requests it of me,” she answered his question her gaze falling to her paws.  Why wouldn't she choose the pale man who had been there for her when she needed him most, who'd been her protector for so long and she didn't have to share him with Angharad. She didn't know how she could get out of going back to Craw if that was what he wanted.

Cheedo genuinely did not know how he would take the answer she'd given him but as his hackles raised and the snarl that followed she knew he wasn't happy.  She'd said the wrong thing, her ears flattened as tightly to her skull as the would go and her body lowered until her stomach was nearly touching the ground as he yelled at her.  A high pitched whine escaped her but she kept her gaze on him as he told her she'd never been Craws wife but what she had really been to the spider. Her gaze then dropped to her paws, she knew he was right.  How many times had she thought over it in the past? His next words were a reminder of how he felt about her and that he'd been there for her when Craw was gone and as she tried to fight the demons that ran her down in Ritter. His tone had changed though his posture had not but for the first time he had turned his anger on her and she feared it like she never had before.

what he said next to her was as close to an apology as she was probably ever going to get from the pale man. He no longer seemed angry with her which helped her to meet his gaze once more.  Slowly she raised herself up until she stood on a half crouched position with her tail tucked against her belly. “I'm sorry Mittani, I know you are right about what I was to him,” she said quietly, “And I will never forget what you have done and how you have treated me. I want to stay with you.” She did truly but he was suggesting that he tell Craw she wouldn't go with him, could she do that when she never has before? She took a deep breath and let it out, “I will tell him no,” she finally said finding some of the strength she'd used when defending herself the day her ear was damaged. “You have brought me to a new start, why shouldn't it be with you?” She asked him sitting back on her haunches but keeping her head lowered. “But I worry what he will do,” she said meeting his pale golden gaze.

She had done what she could to make him believe that it was him she had chosen, not Craw because Mittani was right.  She had been the only one for the pale man and he had protected her, and been there all the times the grief over her lost children had consumed her. Even when she had distance herself from the group he had always welcomed her back with a warm embrace comforting her until she could stay no longer.

Cheedo didn't expect anymore of an apology from him than what she got and she accepted it knowing full well anything else wasn't the real Mittani. It had taken some searching inside herself to find the what little strength she had to pull herself up and tell him what he needed to hear but what she would tell Craw to keep the man who had been her constant.

Her worries had shifted now that she had assured him she would remain with him, no longer did she worry what would happen to her, and them but him.  His reassurance that he would always protect her was a comfort, she was his and had nothing to worry about. “I do understand and you have never given me a reason to doubt you,” which was why she was so firm in staying with him.  She did not back away as he came near her nor did she flinch when his nose touched her forehead. Her eyes closed and a sigh escaping her when his tongue ran over her crown.  She knew them his anger had subsided and she once again felt comfortable with him. With his head resting on hers she whispered, “I do, always,” she affirmed leaning against him.

When he asked about what had been worrying her Cheedo smiled at his concern but it was soon replaced with a frown from the thought of her worries.  “I was worried about what was going to happen to us but I don't have to worry about that any longer. What I'm worried about now is you.”