I’m Done Putting Out The Fires You Start

She had been sneaking out a lot more often at night, something a month ago she would never have dreamed of doing. Marrah was a rule follower, she did what she was told, and did her best to be a good daughter and stay out of the way, and she was proud of that. She knew Enera liked to be more adventurous, and clearly so was Aweho, since he had disappeared without a word. Which was exactly why she had started sneaking out.

Marrah did not want her mother to worry anymore than she already was, and if she could bring her brother home then everything would be good again. So, almost every night, even on nights like tonight when it seemed like the whole world was frozen, she left the territory and tried to find him. But, tonight it had been a mistake, it was cold enough that her teeth chattered so loud she couldn’t hear, she shivered and trembled, and her nose was frozen solid and she could not smell. How was she supposed to find him like this? And, even worse, how was she supposed to get home?

The girl would have cried, but she knew that the moisture would freeze to her cheeks. Stumbling suddenly into a quiet clearing in the woods, Marrah gasped at the sight that greeted her. There, in the middle of the clearing laid a moose carcass, throat open, and seemingly no one around. Rushing forward she looked it over, glancing around to make sure this wasn’t a trap. Could she be this lucky?

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Caelyn knew what his sister had been up when everyone was seemingly asleep, he would still be slightly awake when she stirred and left out into the darkness and cold. Though, he didn't know exactly what Marrah was up to as he never asked her, but sibling intuition made him assume it had to do something with their missing brother. The young Macieo-Tainn wasn't ready to push the boundaries yet especially when their mother was so upset over Aweho's disappearance. He wanted only to console his mother and reassure her he wasn't going to go anywhere. However, Cae wanted to figure out where his brother went and bring him back to his mother to make her happy again.

So, that night when his sky-blue eyes opened to find Marrah gone from the den, he followed his sister's trail all the way outside the borders. His teeth started to chatter, and his nose froze halfway through, but Caelyn trudged on. Determination won out when he finally found her form and that of something dead. Eyes widening, he trudged the snow further until he was at her side staring down upon the moose. "Wow, ni-ce fin-ddd," he said through chattering teeth.

I’m Done Putting Out The Fires You Start

She was pretty naive, even as far as children went. This moose being dropped down here in the middle of nowhere with no sign of what had killed it did not set off any alarm bells for Marrah. Since nobody was around, the girl was about to take her first bite when her brother appeared at her shoulder, chattering teeth and all. Startling a little bit she whipped her head up to look at him in surprise, ”T-t-t-thanks,” and then she realized something else, ”w-w-why are yo-ou-ou here?” Dear god it was cold.

Then Auntie Woya was here! How had Marrah not realized that she was being followed by not one, but two of her family members? Maybe this was not the best time to be out looking for her brother. One word stuck out from what her aunt said, dad. Mom didn’t talk about their dad very much, and Marrah had never really had any questions since in her life that’s just how things were. They had no dad, and neither did Enera, pups just didn’t have Dads, or they did, but they didn’t ever see them.

Still, she had questions. She had not quite worked out all of her social skills so she blurted out, ”What was our dad like? Is he coming back or do dads never come back once pups leave the den?” That was how it worked right? Dads were around for a while, and then they left when their kids got older. She wouldn’t have asked her mom, but she trusted Auntie Woya to tell her the truth. Suddenly the chattering teeth and cold were forgotten about.

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He had seemingly surprised his sister as she whipped her dark head around at his arrival. Marrah asked why he was out, ca-cause yo-ou-u are out he-here. I-I can't-t lose you-ou too," he responded through chattering teeth. Why did the night have to be so much colder? But at least she found something to eat which cold warm them up before they went back.

Before he knew it, there was an adult joining them, but at least it was Auntie Woya and not anyone that would tell on them for being out so late. Or so he hoped his Woya wouldn't tell on them...

She remarked on a memory with her and their dad then which open up the curiosity abyss that lived within Caelyn, though Marrah was the first to get her questions out in the air. His sister's questions could have been taken right out of his mouth, so he didn't add any additional inquiries just yet, but his blue gaze rounded to give their Auntie Woya all the attention. Forget about the massive moose behind him, he wanted to know more about dads.

I’m Done Putting Out The Fires You Start

Marrah was going to admonish Caelyn for coming after her and for thinking so silly. She was out here to find their lost brother, she was not going to go missing too! She would come home safely and she would have Aweho with her and then she will have fixed all of their problems. But, she did not have time to voice any of these thoughts before Auntie Woya arrived and the conversation quickly turned to dads.

Marrah looked at her aunt with anticipation and eagerness bright upon her face, sure that Woya would have all the answers to everything. But, what she said made the happiness drain away and confusion and hurt taking over. Looking at Caelyn in confusion, she blinked a few times, trying to think of what any of this meant. Marrah thought dads just left and moms took care of the kids and that is how everything was but….that wasn’t how it was supposed to be?

A soft whine of confusion slid from her throat before she whispered, ”But…but I don’t understand…” Her words were hoarse since she had to force them out past the lump that was growing painfully in her throat. Blinking against the tears that threatened to fall she spoke louder, ”But if dads aren’t supposed to leave…and he loved us….why didn’t he come back?” Did that meant they were never going to have a dad? Or would they get a new one? Then another thought caused her to blurt, ”Is that why Sirius died, because dad left us all?” She didn’t even know that Enera and Sirius weren’t her siblings, Marrah had lived a sheltered life.

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The silent boy was listening intently for Auntie Woya's answer to Marrah's question, but as soon as he heard it, his ears flattened somberly as he realized though dads are not supposed to leave, but theirs did anyway. Were they that bad as kids that he needed to leave them? But before he could open his maw to question his concerns, Woya went on to explain more of their family history and why exactly their father had left them all alone within the Chasm with only their mother and Woya to care for them.

His cream and cinnamon head swiveled to hear Marrah's words then as she voiced his words again, his gaze looking up at Woya again to try to figure out all the unanswered questions within his mind.

I’m Done Putting Out The Fires You Start

In her peripheral vision Marrah saw her brother’s head swiveling back and forth between her and their aunt, taking in the conversation. The pup leaned against Caelyn for comfort, her mind swimming with confusion and more questions than she could even begin to sort out. The tears that had been threatening were now fully spilling over her cheeks, and freezing to her fur as they fell. She sniffled, rather pathetically, and tried to swallow away the lump in her throat.

Looking at her aunt in horror she blurt out, ”Is that what happened to Aweho!? Did something happen that hurt him and took him away forever too?” This was the worst news that she had ever heard in her short life. If she wasn’t so cold, and Caelyn providing her such comforting warmth, she probably would have taken off into the darkness.

Things only just kept getting worse, at this point Marrah was fully sobbing, ”What do you mean? Who is Sirius’ dad then? Why didn’t he have one?” It was all too much for the girl was was quickly leaving childhood and going into her hormonal tween years. Sniffing again she couldn’t take anymore, ”I hate dads!” This was all their fault. Her dad left and never came back, and now Aweho was gone, and Sirius never had a dad and he died. Oh my god, was she going to die!?

Throwing herself down into the snow and landing against the moose that had drawn her into the area, she dissolved into tears. This was the end.

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