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where we went wrong - Borlla - Apr 21, 2014 @Phineas - late afternoon (Partly Cloudy — Current Temperature: 45° F/7° C) [dohtml] So this was life now? Silence and avoidance and...Self-hatred. She'd been the cause of all of this. But it had been a few weeks now, and most negative emotion had subsided as she sorted out what she needed to do. Tomorrow she would head to Oak Tree Bend and confront Triell and Corinna. The woman hadn't been there, but of course she would have known by now. She needed to explain and all she could do was hope that he might hear her out. Like every other action in her life, she'd done it so thoughtlessly, so fueled by emotion that she simply let her words come out. There was no excuse. If she'd been grieving, then she ought to have stayed back with Hypatia while Phineas and the others went to hunt. Borlla was no diplomat, and that was doubly true when angry. She spoke not from her heart but from her brain that was firing all of its pistons and pumping adrenaline through her system. No, she loved her brothers. If given a moment of clarity, she might have realized that all of it could have been resolved peacefully. Instead, she left her pack with empty bellies and her blood family with a sour taste in their mouths. All she wanted was to know that she and her family weren't immiscible. That she wasn't oil and they weren't water. Quietly, she tread along the edge of the creek, one ear twisted to the side as she listened for prey (or her packmates). She was tired of hiding and being ashamed. RE: where we went wrong - Phineas - Apr 28, 2014 [doHTML] [/doHTML] RE: where we went wrong - Borlla - Apr 28, 2014 [dohtml] Pale brows wrinkled over sad honeyed eyes as she thought of just how foolish she was. Walk? to Oak Tree Bend? No, she couldn't. Her children would not be pawns in this game. Eyes squeezed shut, she cursed herself quietly for being so selfish. Last year, they'd made the perilous journey over the mountain, and this year, she might be wise and remain close to home, especially so late in her pregnancy. Lifting her eyes again, she wobbled onwards, trying to focus on something simple: the feel of grass under her paws. How long had it been? For months, a thick blanket of snow had covered this entire land, and now she could feel the grass again. As she came around a slight bend in the creek, she spotted him and stopped abruptly. Borlla seemed to retreat into herself as she looked upon him, heart beating audibly in her chest as she held onto her breath for a moment. It was hard not to be ashamed before the one you loved, especially when you knew they were furious with you. "Phineas..." She worried aloud, taking a tentative step forward, then another and another. Feet still laid between them, damned space. The words worked around in her mouth; they tasted sour and she was not keen on letting them free, but they needed to be let go. "I messed up. I know. I will fix this." Her voice wavered, but she tried to stay strong, desperate to prove to him that she would make this right. RE: where we went wrong - Phineas - May 31, 2014 [doHTML] [/doHTML] RE: where we went wrong - Borlla - May 31, 2014 [dohtml] That flicker of a frown upon his muzzle sent a dagger into her heart. What had she done? She'd failed him. Not even her words could fix this, her promise to make this right. Winter still hung on as long as this lingered. Her eyes dropped, angry at herself. Perhaps he would not believe her, but she knew she would fix this. Borlla would put this winter in the past. Her hackles rose uncertainly as he growled and began to speak. Everything he said was true and she began to relive in. The disgust in his tone rang in her ears, but she felt it as well, homegrown in her chest. The children within her stirred, and she felt something trying to break inside of her again. No. No, she would not live through this again. Though her emotions had turned against her, the woman knew that she could fix this. And she would tell herself that until the day she did it. Her eyes lifted, wondering if he even wanted to hear her excuses, her logic, as faulty as it had been. Her jaws parted, grasping at words. "I was...angry and upset and scared." Borlla's voice was quiet as she laid the words out before him, but mostly to herself as her eyes dropped again. "I'll speak to Triell, I'll apologize to everyone until I'm dead...Phineas, what do you want me to do?" She pleaded with the man, her mate, desperate. Her haunches fell to the ground as her legs began to ache from the weight she carried. RE: where we went wrong - Phineas - Jul 02, 2014 [doHTML] [/doHTML] |