Nervous? Yes, she was nervous. Wise? She couldn't say that now could she? Ashanti had pushed forth from a small cave she had found, not comfortable being around the den or pack members for fear of what they thought of her. If she had truly lost her mind, which she did not doubt Miccah's words, than she doubted she would get good reactions from them all. It plagued her, she wanted to know who she knew and who she didn't but she couldn't because they probably thought her insane. Since her join she had been repeating a line over and over, just trying to convince herself that she could work her way back up in the pack. According to Miccah, she had been a second of the pack. She had been right below Nina, whom she understood to be the female alpha.

The woman had no idea that the den she rested in night after night was the very den that she had her child in, the den that she went mad in, it just seemed like an isolated place. More importantly, it made her feel safe. How ironic it was. Ashanti Aranna, a name vastly different from Celestina and I begged the question of why she kept repeating Miccah's name. Why had she not been repeating her name over and over. It was, she wasn't sure, something that was meant to be looked at. Did she feel something for him? It was the only thing she could think of and it was then that she dedicated her time to finding an answer to the problem. He had rushed to leave after appearing to be happy that Asha was back, but why did he leave so suddenly if it was true? The questions had plagued her every waking second of her days.

Dawn was creeping across the horizon, orange light bathing the thicket in glittering gold. The young wolfess was already up, trotting along the borders at a quick pace, not bothered by the morning chill. Her morning patrols had become earlier and earlier, unable to sleep in the lonely burrow without a warm body beside her - she had considered joining the others in the pack den, but it felt like giving up, and she wouldn't! So she kept to herself, spending cold, waking night gazing into the darkness, waiting, hoping. So far without result. But trailing the borders every day offered a small comfort, hunting for herbs at the same time as she searched for any sign, the smallest scent... She found the first in abundance, but the second... Where have you gone?! With so many days past, any older markings had faded, covered by the newer scent trails of the pack leaders; she couldn't even smell him anymore.

She wanted to go looking for him, leave the territory and search every part of Relic Lore to retrieve him; but her place was here. At the moment she was the only other wolf in The Woodlands, besides Nina, with knowledge of herbs and healing. She couldn't go. So she patrolled. Two, sometimes three times a day, she traced the borders, the exercise providing a faint comfort, and in the evening she returned to their den, where the faint scent of him still lingered; Oh, my @Coal, please come home!

The vixen lass finished her round and started back into the land, not knowing what to do with herself. She considered seeking out Nina, but with the new pups, the alphess would have more than enough in her paws already. @Miccah then? She was sure the dark leader shared her concern for the lost man, but in truth she just wanted to be alone. So she turned towards the den, slowing into a walk, she was in no hurry.

Then the scent reached her nose, its familiarity making her heart jump. It took her brain a moment to realize that it wasn't the marking she was searching for, and by then her paws were already carrying her hastily in direction of the wolf; It's not him. But then who..? It had been so long, and her mind was working unusually slowly, all she could tell was that the scent was familiar, that it was a friend. Only as she rounded another corner, emerging from the dense foliage to stand face to face with the white wolfess, did her memory finally kick in; "A... A-Ashanti?!"

With her mind so preoccupied with worry, the orange girl hadn't paid much attention to what else had gone on in the pack, she'd stayed to herself, she'd foraged... She hadn't even noticed... "You... You're back! ..?"

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The woman was startled as Aideen came crashing through the thicket to stand in front of her. Ashanti cowered slightly as her tail tucked in respect for the woman who was of higher rank. The woman called out her name, her true name, almost in a disbelieving manner. She had known this woman because this woman had known her. "D... Did I know you?" She asked in an almost curious tone. Her eyes filled with a startling emotion. She felt like she should recognize Aideen but she couldn't managed to find anything inside her mind. "I... Miccah told me I use to belong here, that I was a healer and that I went insane.... I... I can't remember anything." She whispered out some sort of an explanation to the woman for her strange questions.

Ashanti knew the sciences behind her insanity, that her memory loss might reverse itself and she might remember everything if something triggered it. She just hoped to avoid the trigger, so far so good. "I have a question, one I didn't get a clear answer to. Miccah said I shut him out. His answer was not clear. What was I shutting out? What was he to me?" She asked the question boldly with the hope that the girl knew the answer to it. The name Ashanti, Asha recalled, was still so foreign to her but she was getting use to being called as such. She drew in a small breathe and gazed at the woman, though not in the eyes as the healer awaited an answer from the other healer. What was I to anyone?

To the healer's disappointment, Aideen didn't quite have a clear answer, though it was obvious she actually had given her best opinion on the subject. The woman offered Aideen a small smile as she nodded in understanding. "I understand. He said we had been close, and if it is true than I hope we can rekindle our relationship, but I just still wasn't quite sure how close it was when he said we were close." She said in a rather confused voice, her eyes fading with a small glow. "H... He said I went insane, that I had lost my mind or that you guys had pushed me to hard but I don't understand what any of it meant." Ashanti said, continuing her confusion. If Aideen was her friend, maybe she would spread some more light on what had driven Asha insane.

She blinked, her eyes focusing on the female. "I'm just trying to piece together my life before Ipsum Falls, where I started to remember things again. It's proving more difficult than it seemed to be at first. Miccah... he said he knew me from my past but he's avoiding me... something makes me feel like I said something to upset him." She admitted to Aideen with a small sigh as she rested on the ground, her head on her front paws as she gazed at the female, waiting for some sort of answer if she was to get one. She hoped she had not messed things up; she didn't want to pass the point of no return. There was pain in her eyes.

She didn't want to believe it. She had never wanted to believe that anything like that could have happened and it was because it frightened her. She felt like she could still be that mentally unstable woman who would go insane and not remember her family or her past. The look of shock and despair on imprinted on her face."I... I'm really sorry about everything that I've put you through. I... I think my return is doing more harm then it is good sometimes. But if I'm going to be here... I need to know everything. I feel like Miccah was holding back things, important things, and I need to know what they are. Can we start with your name, miss?" She asked as politely as she could.

Occasionally she had a nightmare or a good dream that would hint at her past and she still had Miccah's name which she had murmured when Dractive had found her so long ago. Asha had been careful to watch what she said in case she hinted that she might know more about her past then she realized. The nightmares were too terrible and she hoped they weren't true. But the dreams... she hoped those were true. "Also... do you think it is wise for me to go see Nina? Miccah told me I had been close with her but I don't want to bring up any bad memories for anyone... especially if I have no idea what they are or why they are bad..." She asked her friend who seemed to be taking the fact that she couldn't remember anything pretty well.

The subordinate had been shy around her friend because she had no real idea about what had been going on. Normally she was so outspoken and caring but with all the knowledge of her past being entered into her head once more had put her into a bit of a shock. She sat down on her haunches before the woman named Aideen as Aideen tried to comfort her fears. Only a few wolves could do that and one was avoiding her. One of the wolves probably didn't even know she was here and the last was dead. Miccah, Nina, Dractive. Still, she would give Aideen a shot. The woman burst out a love confession before quickly explaining it was a relationship of being friends and she smiled a little bit with a giggle. She promised to tell Ashanti everything and so the subordinate's tail wagged vigorously from side to side.

She was going to get answers.

Then the woman went on about how she didn't think that Nina would react badly to her return and it really did assure her. This woman knew her... or at least who she used to be and she probably knew Nina just as well. She motioned for Aideen to take a seat and then she spoke. "Aideen, please, tell me everything." She asked of the woman with a huge grin on her face. At the very least, Aideen seemed excited that Ashanti had returned. Ashanti... she was still getting use to that name after going by Celestina as far as she could remember. She could see the kindness radiating on her face. "All Miccah told me was that I had been close to Nina before my untimely disappearance and that I had used to be a healer. I still am and I wondered why I was drawn to herbs pack where I had been treated... I guess I know why!" She explained what she knew about so far and then waited for more answers.