Grizzly Hollow pathos

Amaryllis felt her throat seize up and any words that may have emerged had it not felt like she had swallowed a mouthful of very sticky honey, along with her tongue sticking to the roof of her mouth. What was wrong with her?! She took a deep breath, trying to clear her mind. She could do this, she had done this.

"my mate...my ex mate...he," She needed a drink herself now, anything to stall the conversation and to gather her strength. The grey wolf quickly turned to the small creek she had lead them to, short sharp breaths escaping her as a small amount of panic tried to overcome her. Why was she having a panic attack now, of all times?! The words had come freely to her, or at least somewhat when explaining to Veho.

But he is a pack-mate, your leader and a friend. her mind hissed at her. He would understand her, surely protect her should anything come about from her past. This wolf, Bella, was a stranger, an ally from another pack yes but still a stranger.

The cool water helped her focus on something, the sharpness and the fresh smell that cool water could only bring. Water dripped from her muzzle as she lifted her head away from the source, her eyes still focused downwards and not looking anywhere near Bella. She thought she had gotten over this, had gotten over all these...attacks that sneaked up on her without a warning! She hated it and wanted them to stay away. She had gotten away from him, fled when she knew there was no way she could stay any longer without risking her life. and she had to live, live and survive if she ever wanted to see her pups again. No longer in danger and somewhere she was safe, where she didn't have to look over her shoulder and didn't have to worry over her next meal.

It had been fine for a short time so why did they still. keep. coming!

In her self induced panic, she hadn't realised she had left Bella alone a few feet away, after freaking out and only speaking a few words that might have made no sense to the other. Or maybe it did.

(This post was last modified: Jun 05, 2016, 12:13 PM by Amaryllis.)

@Amaryllis Sorry for the wait, let's finish this <3 If you don't want to post once more, you can archive it!

It had been the wrong thing to say. Bella's brows knitted in concern as she took a step back, the first words out of Lily's mouth also happening to be the last - and Bella understood all too well. It wasn't as though they had the same ex-mate, but the way that Lily said it, the way that she needed to steel herself, the way that just mentioning him hitched her breath and rendered her unable to say more - Bella recognised it. She was fortunate that time had passed, she had had the opportunity to heal, to move away, had had Duck always at her side. She would be making reparations to him for his unhappy start in life for the rest of hers, she expected.

Bella did not move to interrupt Lily as the woman drank, recognising panic and distrust and scolding herself for pushing at all. She felt Wolesh chuckle in the back of her neck, and did her best to ignore it.

The distressed woman moved away, as if in a daze, and yes, Bella understood. "I'm sorry," she whispered to the wind, ears pulled back in shame and empathy. She wanted so badly to move forward and comfort the woman but - but that wouldn't be right. She'd triggered this. She couldn't risk making it worse. Turning heavy eyes to the creek, she just stood there, and stared at herself, and took long, careful, steadying breaths, and willed away the faint sound of cold laughter.