Private for @Morganna
Mordacai had gone through his normal morning routine, one of the few things that had not been affected by the move to this new land, with dampened spirits. Last night he and his sister had arrived home from their two day journey to the North where they had the pleasure of feasting on bison, an animal that Mordacai had never had the pleasure of eating before but that he immensely hoped to feed on again. Luckily he had managed to bring some of it back with him, though he had eaten most of what he had taken with him on the long journey home. But even with this delicious meal to look forward to the swarthy male couldn't help but harbor a feeling of melancholy. Though their journey to the North and back had been relatively calm, he and his sister had been on the outs ever since their failed hunting attempt. She had been the reason, or so he thought, that he decided to abandon his birth pack and join Willow Ridge but now he felt tense and out of place whenever he was around her. She was a constant reminder of his childhood, of his old self, a submissive, timid, unmotivated wolf that he had hoped to leave back at the Calarosa mountains. How could he ever demand respect from these new wolves when his older sister was around to lord over him?
Conflicted, Mordacai viciously licked at his fur trying to dislodge the sticky blood that had clung on for the last two days. Once he was satisfied that he had licked his fur spotlessly clean, he grabbed the small hunk of bison meat that he had left and trotted into the open forest of willow trees that were now his home. Cai stomped through the forest until he found a suitable spot to sit down and eat his meal. Alone. He didn't believe that he wanted company because everyone that he could think to dine with would only bring back the sense of being out of place. Enoki would be the worst choice right now. He could ask Titan, but the boy only reminded him that he did not grow up here and did not have roots in this place as Titan did. Titan who seemed to be related to random pups that they met in the North. Cai could never run into his family here as Titan had. And even if he did, what would they have to say to him? That he was a deserter? That he had not served much purpose before and certainly served no purpose now? No, Cai was sure that there was no one who could bring him out of this rut with the exception of the dead bison that now provided him with the one thing every man wanted when he felt this way. A good meal.