<blockquote><span style='font-size:7pt;line-height:100%'><ul>I suppose we should finish this off? God, processing all the dialogue was so difficult for Kiche’s tiny brain.</li></ul></span>
Most of the argument flew right over his head, and he desperately sought to find some meaning for phrases like, “<i>Kiche was punished for what he did.</i>” At the moment, it was impossible to make sense of something like that. What <i>had</i> he done? What had he done that stirred up the black banshee to the point of vengeance and hysteria? Was she still so caught up on that day so long ago? Kiche still couldn’t understand what he had actually done <i>wrong</i> then. All he could recall was a lot of blood and shouting and her offer to rip his face off. But there had never been any explanations. He was stupid, he was young, he was confused. He had never truly wanted to be a part of this cult –not until now. But then, back then, he hadn’t wanted any of this, hadn’t asked for any of this, had understood nothing. And no one had cared to explain anything to him…
But then he realized something. He had never cared to explain <i>himself</i> to any of them. Not even Aisling.
Jayse, it appeared, believed he had changed. What did that mean? Sure, he felt… <i>different</i>… but a lot of it he wasn’t sure he liked. Had he changed for the better? But now was not the time to ask himself these questions. The war of words that raged above his head held his attention like a vice. “<i>He’s broken, and I have to help him.</i>” These declarations confused him. “<i>He needs me…</i>” How could he have been so <i>blind</i>? He had never believed Aisling until now: there <i>was</i> good in these heathens, far too much for him to comprehend, it appeared. Jayse was trying to reach out to him, she wanted to help him, she <i>believed</i> in him. He was lost for words.
As for the sable bitch, though… it appeared there was only darkness in her soul. There was no religious forgiveness in her heart, even though Kiche felt as if there was little to forgive. <i>What have I done that was so awful!</i> He wanted to shout, suddenly. But to defend himself, to raise his voice would only further inflame Elettra. She was unwilling to offer him the clean slate that Jayse asked for, only because she claimed that he would not offer it to her. And that was an unfair thing for her to say. Why <i>should</i> he offer her a clean slate when all that was preventing her from ripping his throat out was his Jayse, his guardian angel? Elettra did nothing to <i>deserve</i> a clean slate, while Kiche felt he had done nothing to prevent him from getting another clean one. Quite frankly, he was confused about why he had been so condemned to <i>begin</i> with. None of this made any sense! Elettra’s ultimatum were her final words, and as suddenly as she appeared she was gone.
Roughly, the dusty ginger male rolled so that he was upright again, laying on the ground, staring up at Jayse. For reasons that escaped him, she loved that dark barbarian. “<b>Jayse…</b>” he said softly, hoping to draw her attention, “<b>I’m… I’m sorry.</b>” Sorry for whatever he had done before to cause all this mess, sorry for all the things he had thought and believed about her, sorry for all the harm he had plotted to cause her, sorry for leaving, sorry for creating a rift between her and the black heathen. He was sorry for too many things. But he still wondered. “<b>Do you really…</b>” The words caught in his throat. “<b>Do you really believe those things you… said. About me?</b>” He had to know.</blockquote>