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Felix hope that is okay ace????
This morning she had startled when she woke, surprised by the familiar darkness of the den for once. But why should this be odd, she mused in the cloudy, inarticulate way of a pup who only knew four things: family, food, familiar, unfamiliar. Darkness had been her life until this moment, and although the world had slowly begun to lighten her vision was still murky and the walls around her were still comfortable shadows. With difficulty, closing her eyes, Joan reached for the fading impression of a burst of a sensation against her eyes so intense and un-namable and she knew this had not been in real life. Real life was monotonous, real life was just periods of warmth flowing down her throat and the ceaseless cry of one family member or another. Joan was silent now. How could she have seen the brightness down in here? There was nothing in this pit but wolves—hungry, willful, noisy wolves.
Grunting with displeasure, Joan felt the earthly world come back to her as the weight of her sister became more persistent. Ophie, the loudest of the family, tended to get herself into all sorts of precarious situations. Joan would not say that she hadn't pushed her. But the transgressions of her sister were altogether forgiven when Mama spoke, deep tones ushering in an excitement even though the meaning of the word "outside" remained at the edge of her grasp.
Outside.
She turned the word over again, hoping to tap it closer so that she might latch onto it. Well, where was there to
go? Joan had seen all there was to see of the dirt. That left only one place. With the realization came the bright flash of light she had seen without seeing:
the tunnel. Papa and Dada came and went from this tunnel, a slope that seemed impossibly steep to the young girl. She felt Mama's nose against her rump. Impossible meant nothing. If Joan was ever going to be a big wolf like Mama and Dada and Papa, then the slope was no more than small knoll.
Ophelia was already mounting the slope. Her paws itched: she did not want to be outdone. Yet her head turned, for she felt with a greater strength that her brother should come with her, too, and that she should see him safely to the top. "
Fi," she insisted, giving him a poke, "
Fiiiii come on." She would drag him by the tail if need be.
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And at the top she saw it, truly
saw it this time—the brightness. Joan had to blink several times before she could see her pale sister standing there, looking almost dingy in comparison to the light. Ophie made such an event out of every moment, but her discomfort had never stopped her from anything. Her chest felt warm with pride as she watched her sister step boldly across the line and disappear into the whiteness.
She knew without truly knowing that the brightness would not harm her. In the dream it had felt like a comfort, that was all she could say. Giggling, she tumbled forward and felt the heat of the whiteness surge through he fur. Before, Mama was the only one that could give warmth. But the outside gave it freely, generously. Rising up on her hind legs shakily, the girl came down atop of her sister's back, hoping to insight some play and perhaps get back at her sister for having beaten her out here into the light—her intentions were not to be mistaken for jealousy or ill-will, only lighthearted fun.
"
Pin Ophie, Pin Ophie!" she cried, hoping her brother would soon come to her aid and help her flip her pale sister over onto her back.
Joan @ ~8 months: Adult fur and winter coat grown in, eyes are now grey, nearly adult sized. Human age ~11-12