With so much travelling, it was easy for the scenery of different areas to start blurring together in his memory. One patch of grass looked pretty darn close to another patch of grass and that tree looked like that tree over there or that one he'd passed miles ago, except maybe that one was bent... At this point, he wasn't too sure, but somehow, some way... This seemed different. It appeared he'd finally stumbled upon a forest or woods of some sort, rises and drops in the terrain seemingly all around.
His ears twitched at a rumble in his stomach and he tipped his nose to the air, giving a couple sniffs. He had wondered often in his travels if he would've been better staying behind with the pack, but the thought crossing his mind again made his ears twitch back again in something like unease and a little frown tugging at his lips.
No, there wouldn't have been a pack to stay with for much longer, if he had to pitch an educated guess at the wind for the matter. Father had been struggling with keeping it together and Ma had all but lost her mind in her grief and that sort of weakened leadership invited trouble from within and without. Of course, some would probably ask why he hadn't bid his time away staying there to take over himself in that case, but it was a simple matter of that not being within Sindri's interests. It was, perhaps, something his brother would have done if he hadn't been killed, but Sindri would've worried then, too. He almost would've had to stick around if that happened, as proven by the way his brother had died. He would've needed an adviser, a level-headed voice of reason that wouldn't go charging off on blind emotion. Then again, they'd tried that and he still had. Brynja, their sister, on the other hand, had been in no shape to lead. She had become a ghost of herself after that hunting accident and Sindri had barely heard a word out of her since before she'd left on said hunt.
The male gave a full-length shake to rid his mind of the thoughts. If he truly doubted any part of his decision to leave, it was the fact that he hadn't brought his sister with him. He supposed it would have been nice to believe that a change of scenery could've maybe helped her instead of her staying with Ma and Father and the brewing turmoil in the pack, but he had traveled way too far to turn back now to retrieve her. Plus, there were no guarantees about what he'd find if he went back now.
That thought was probably the worst of all and, despite the pretty amicable temperature, he almost swore he felt a chill seep through his pelt and into his bones because of it. With that, the male pushed on at a light trot. He needed to find food - food and probably shelter.
He'd pushed on through territory after territory for long enough. It was time to start thinking about finding a place to call home, finding a pack, if he could. Perhaps the thing he'd missed most of all was the comfort of his sister curled up against him, both of them watching the stars and drawing designs in them with the tips of their claws until they couldn't keep their eyes open any longer.
Yes, he did indeed miss it, but the past was the past. There was no use dwelling on it now. The focus needed to be on the now and the future or he wouldn't be around to dwell on or remember it for long. Such was how life worked.