Kobe didn’t readily reply to Askan’s sharp words. He knew he earned them and was aware that in insulting the pack he was probing to join he was already treading on thin ice. His expression was thoughtful as he weighed his options with the understanding that Askan may chase him off depending on his next words.
To be or not to be. That was the question. A question of pride. Sacrifice. Was his freedom worth it? He was free to roam where he pleased, insult who he pleased and all in all stir the pot of conflict with all he came in contact. He was also free to be hungry, cold and alone. Alone.
He was not a stranger to solitude but didn’t like the idea of it being imposed upon him. He saw the danger of slipping into that fate. He had pushed Askan a bit too far and if he really wanted to be his pack, Kobe knew his rank would be far inferior to Wild Rye’s Second. Or so he assumed. There was always opportunity to climb but first, he had to be accepted. Was he willing to cross that milestone? Adopt humility and take the plunge?
Kobe glanced around him before casting his eyes over his shoulder. If he was rejected he would have to leave. He would return to the snow alone. How much longer could he survive? Was the life of a loner really worth it?
He returned his gaze back to Askan, surprised at his offer. Just what was wrong with the dark male’s pack to make him want to recruit a vagabond like Kobe? It was a question to ponder for another time. He still had a chance. He had to keep his heart from leaping at the idea and yet again weighed the pros and cons. This was a decision that would turn him down another path.
If he put forth some effort and bowed now, perhaps there would come a time where he could make the dark wolf bow. He smiled inwardly at the thought. Maybe there would come a time where he could make a pack his own. He’d always shirked leadership in his mind but yearned for it in his heart. The most important wolf could never be a burden.
“My scraggly ass, would like to join.” He said, playing the sarcasm for humor.
“I’ve never asked to join a pack before. Tell me what I have to do and I’ll do it. Shall I submit or would you rather call your alpha?” His tone was anything but mocking, he was sincere. His natal pack consisted only of family, outsiders were chased off without question. It already surprised him that the wolves of this land formed packs of utter strangers. It seemed blood wasn’t thicker than water after all, at least not here.
~~ Do it or don't do it, you'll regret both ~~