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Lenae knew her body well enough to know what this was. She wasn't some starry eyed yearling who didn't know any better, it was old news and she was already tired. It had started a few days prior, just a little something that felt off, like an itch she couldn't scratch. But now it felt more solid, more real, tangible and yet still out of reach. There was nothing she could do about it, nor would there ever be, she would always need a helping hand... and that thought terrified her.
Temptation was an awful thing, sinful, but she felt it in her bones, like yet another curse she couldn't shake off.
It had never been so bad back home, surrounded by family and those she trusted. It was always going to be unpleasant, all stinky and hot and bothered, but safety had always been a certainty back when her Father reigned. There were no ifs or buts hanging over her head like a guillotine ready to drop.Here though? Lenae couldn't help but be afraid.
She adored Piety and her entourage with all she had but she had to be alone. The thought of being Lorcan's presence made her shiver, he was nice enough, she supposed, but the fact that he was male was more than enough to make her need to put distance between them. Thinking of it like that made it sound so base, like she had no self control, but it was easier this way and solitude wasn't so bad- or at least that's what she told herself.
Her wandering paws led to the glen once more, but this time there was no Cyril, just silence and the snow.
The crisp air would surely do her good, right? That's what she hoped as she hurried through the snow, inching towards the shoreline of the lake. It was pretty here, with the gorgeous mountains in the backdrop, but wasn't it a bit open? A bit too familiar? She shivered and came to a stop, her tail curling around her hind leg. It was then she realised that there was something in the ice, something dark and shadowy. She sniffed, her nose twitching as she took in the sight and scent of it, it was close to the shore, a few footfalls away. She could have easily stepped forward to inspect it, put her curiosity to rest, but of course she didn't. Lenae was afraid, scared of falling in, slipping and bumping her elbow.
Even this was too much, too soon.