Even if this was a sensitive topic, she knew that XIX would understand everything that she had to say. He had always been with her and supported her when she needed it so it would've been very unlike him to turn her ideas away. There was no telling what next year would look like for her and while she could hope she would find someone worthwhile to help her in that department, she also felt that gnawing doubt. The kind of doubt that told her that there was no one around willing to get that intimate. However, she was quick to rush the thought out because she wasn't prepared to share her insecurities just yet. I think... I think I'd like both of us to talk to her. It seemed only fair that the both of them do it so that it wouldn't be entirely on one or the other. We can either do it at the same time or separately. That way if Lilya doesn't approve, then I can step in ... she wanted to say she would step in and take whatever blame and hurt might come but she really didn't believe Lilya capable of showing her that kind of aggression. They had formed a friendship, Ana believed, and while having multiple litters in the pack was a frowned upon thing she hoped that Lilya would understand that a family was all Ana had ever wanted. Truthfully, if she had to leave the Surge and go elsewhere to be able to start that family... she would. It would be hard, but she'd do it.
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