<blockquote>Being back in Swift River felt like falling into a hole. A deep hole, with light at the top but light at the bottom and a thin pathway connecting the two.
It wasn't... it wasn't necessarily a bad thing. He felt a need to be at both ends, with Indru and his family but also making his own life, out with Ruiko and whoever else they would find. That Ruiko had succumbed to the pit made it easier to lose sight of the top. Kinis knew he could be happy here, living his years out in this land, but he was simply incapable of letting go of the pathway. He would always need a way out.
Oh, it made his head hurt. He grunted to himself, sick of being stuck in endless looped thoughts already, and he had only been back in the ranks for a few days. Why couldn't he just be happy? Fortunately, he had a good means of relieving his irritation. Crunching down harder on the slender, toothmark-riddled femur that he had procured earlier, he ground down on it and subjugated it to every piece of heart burn and confusion that he fought with.
It didn't help that Swift River was doing so well, so damn well, which only went to show him how little he and Ruiko had managed to do. He should have tried harder, should have more readily approached strangers, and, for those that he had talked with, not so easily dismissed them as potential family. It wasn't a simple task when you automatically measured everyone up to Ruiko's standards.
But they wouldn't be able to survive effectively, just the two of them. So why not just settle in here? Argh, why was he going in circles?!</blockquote>
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<i>at least... that's where I'm supposed to be...</i></center>
<i>at least... that's where I'm supposed to be...</i></center>