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While she didn't want to admit it and was trying her best not to, her teachers words only confirmed it. Her birth family was important however she had to focus on her new family. They needed her more and she couldn't and wouldn't ever leave again. "No I guess you're right. I - I thought I had caught the scent of my older brother while I was out on a patrol. It was silly of me to think it could have actually been him..." She trailed off. She gave her head a shake to rid herself of the memory. She still felt guilt for leaving but she could not afford to dwell on her blood any longer. It was time to focus on the cove wolves and for right now her teacher before her. She could see the supris take over his dark features as he paused a moment to answer her question. So they had a similar story. A friend of his had convinced him to join just as he had convinced the then yearling to join. A smile grew on the dark woman's face as her tail swpet the snow beneath it. "Kind of sounds like how I joined, except we hadn't met before you joined." She gave a small chuckle before another yawn escaped her maw, so much for sleeping in.

Her salmon tounge curled inwards as the yawn was in fully swing. Once it subsided mercury hued eyes refocused on her teacher as he explained he didn't want to lose their friendship. For the young woman it would have to take a lot more than some distance due to a rank shift to cause her to not trust or befriends with the man who had done so much for her. "I think with our friendship as strong as it is it's not going anywhere." She offered hoping it would reassure him. There was a few moments of silence before her teacher offered up some much needed advice. Silver dusted ears lowered against her skull as it too lowered. Her silver gaze adverted down as guilt filled her because she knew he was right. She hasn't been there for her packmates since stepping up. So.other than simply filling the spot she's failed at being alpha. An almost inaudible while left the young woman as she shifted in her spot. "You're so right Kajika. I need to be there for everyone and I haven't, I've failed. While I don't necessarily need or want them to fully accept me because I'm just a place holder I do want them to know I'm there for them." She admitted, her metal gaze lifting to meet his amber one.

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Unfinished business? She wish she had unfinished business but unfortunately that term was too small to cover her problem. Water began to form in her silver gaze as it moved from her teacher to her paws. She would have given anything to see her family again. To make sure they were safe and sound. However the now lead female no longer had that luxury for she had to put the needs of the pack before her own. Since returning to the cove and almost immediately being asked to step up the dark woman has had to come to terms that her birth pack is gone and won't ever be returning. It wasn't something she wanted to do, lose hope, but its what had to be done for her own sanity and for the better good of the pack. "I'm not sure if I'd call it unfinished business. I lost my whole family in a wild fire a few months before my first birthday. I don't know what happened to them but I haven't seen them since." She explained looking back to her friend. She had cleared the mist in her eyes, she couldn't dwell on it any longer.

Kajika spoke of how it didn't matter when their friendship formed because they were both still there with no intentions of leaving. That statement warranted a warm smile and wave of her silver tipped tail. He was very much right. The swarthy man only supported his case when he continued on to say that he too believed their friendship could withstand many trials. "No not at all. If anyone should feel betrayed its you. I'm sorry that I didn't seek you out either. Its more my responsibility as alpha anyways. I hope you can forgive me." She hope he could so that she would know she always had at least one wolf that she could rely on no matter what. Moon was beyond grateful for their friendship. He could always make her feel better. Maybe she was being too hard on herself for he said that she hasn't failed. She's still new to the role and would learn in time. It correlated with what Namid had said when the ebony woman had spoken to her. Maybe she could do this, maybe she wasn't a failure after all. The confidence that her teacher, her co-leader as well as the true queen all began to seep in. Her own self confidence began to grow. 

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Her attempt to hide the water in her eyes had been unsuccessful for her teacher had definitely noticed. While she loved her birth family and missed them terribly she knew she had to let them go. It had been almost two years now and she had the cove wolves to call her family. Plus now being lead female she most definitely couldnt be dwelling on the past. She had to let go. She blinked the tears away they had no place here and looked back at his dark features. She gave a meek smile in response to his apology. No she shouldn't have but she did and there wasn't anything anyone could do to change that. “Perhaps, you need to find out what happened to them? Good or bad it would be better than not knowing.” [/font]His words took a moment to register. Find out? How could she possibly do that? Go back to her birth lands? It had taken her months before she ended up in the lore. That would mean it would take twice that to get there and back. She couldn't leave the cove again let alone for that long. She already used her second chance and wouldn't be able to come back. Plus she was alpha until Namid was ready and who knew how long that would take. She shook her head. No she had dealt with not knowing for so long she didn't want to know. What if they were alive and well. How would she be able to leave them again. The ebony woman had already begun to deal with them being dead. It was for her own sanity and the well being of FTC.

"There's no way for me to find out. My birth lands are months away. Which would mean I'd have to leave the cove. I can't do that. This is my home know you and everyone else are my family now. Anyways I'm not sure I want to know what exactly happened." She replied with a sigh. That chapter of her life was over now. She couldn't and wouldn't dwell on it anymore. She stood and gave her pelt a good shake as if to shake all of it away. She sat back down and looked to her friend. A small smile of acceptance formed on her inky lips as he went on to say that they were equally to blame. She could agree with that. His acceptance of her apology warranted her tail to thump happily against the frozen ground. She was thankful to have such a good friend, one that she could trust and that would stand by her through anything. "I can agree with you there. How about we agree to check up often with each other. Just to make sure the other is doin' alright" She suggested with her tail still swaying behind her. It would be nice to have someone looking out for her and to start being more involved with her packmates. Staying secluded wasn't benefitting anyone.

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A pained smile formed on the inky lips at the dark mans words. Not pained due to being uncomfortable, but more like she was feeling down and he had managed to bring a smile to her face. Moon was eternally grateful for not only this mans friendship but also the simple fact of meeting him. He's the one who saved her last winter, gave her a home and a family. The young woman's mind drifted back to her encounter with @Karina and their discussion about the All Mother. Could the goddess truly exist and was this her plan for the ebony she-wolf? She truly hoped so cuz it was going pretty well thus far. Even if the young woman had her reservations about how things happen or why they happen she could at least admit that right this moment things weren't too bad. "Thank you Kajika. That really means a lot to me. Its really nice to know I have someone to count on again." She had been on her own for so long she almost forgot what it meant to be close with someone.

So it was settled they promised to keep regular tabs on each others well being. Her silver dusted tail wagged enthusiastically at the agreement. It would keep her from making excuses and from avoiding others. Her smile broaden at the prosect of having someone check up on her. "Yes it will" she replied with a chirp. "And what do ya say, if one of us is slacking the one has full permission for a surprise attack? Just to keep things interesting" she suggested playfully. This conversation has put her in a much better mood than she's been in a really really long time. Her good mood caused her to be completely oblivious to the very real possibility that her teacher could be put off at such a childish idea. 

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Her silver dusted tail wagged happily behind her seated rump. She was glad to have someone there for her. The duos relationship was enough for the woman to definitely not need to leave the cove. While she loved her family very much she had to accept that they were gone. Fallen Tree Cove was home now and the wolves within it her family. This is all she needs. "Yes indeed they do" she replied with a warm smile. That smile soon turned mischievious as her suggestion left her lips. Her happiness and mischievousness clouded her judgment that she was acting like a puppy and her company could take it the wrong way. Luckily this wasnt case completely for the dark man chuckled. He agreed to her proposistion and she was estatic. Yes indeed to keep them on their toes yet before she could answer him he moved. The dark woman thought nothing of the beta getting to his feet it wasn't until he pounced in her direction did she react. Quickly she jumped to all fours in surprise. She didn't exactly expect to start right then but she could roll with it. Moon dropped her front end into a playful bow with her tail wagging excitedly in the air. Her mercury pools held a gleam that easily gave away that she was up to no good.

"Mmm ya that works too" she replied with a light laugh. "Buuut I was thinkin' of something more liiikeee..." She pretended to act like she was coming up with an idea off the top of her head. Her silver gaze scanned the shore around them. Not so much as to check to see if anyone was there but more to distract her 'victim' from her impeading attack. Once she made sure his amber gaze followed her own she pounced. "This!" She exclaimed bolting towards him. She jumped on his back in an attempt to knock him over while grabbing for his ear. She let out a play growl as their similarly colored pelts mixed together. It had been a really long time since she's wrestled with anyone. Her older brother might have been the last wolf she played with. It felt exhilarating to let loose and pretend there wasn't a worry in the world.