It wasn't unusual, Borden may be back, but each morning was quite the same. Wake up, check everyone was breathing, and check the surrounding area. The black loner had entered her territory twice, and she had a feeling it could happen again. So the pale, silver wolf was quite caught up in checking to make sure the same loner or any other had not crossed into Grizzly Hollow again. It was only when she was sure today, least for now, she'd try to catch something to take back for hungry bellies. Briefly her mind went to Borden, the tempation to get him breakfast if she managed.

Today she did decided not see Borden or for the moment. She would admit to herself she often avoided where he was. It was just too easy for frustration to spark her temper, and it didn't help he did not speak much. She may have a glimmer of hope, but it was hard to hold onto it when disaster was at every corner. She put it from her mind when a rockchuck's scent teased her nostrils. If anything it would be better than a measly mouse, and she had a number of mouths who could use it.

Little effort she found it's nest, and paused the longest of time waiting for it to come out. When it decided to return to the outside world, it was for the last time as her jaws snapped around it's head, and throat. She did not pity it, as it was a natural part of life for it to pass not having the ability to check thoroughly before darting. When she started back to the hollow she picked up Aisling's scent, and decided to follow the girl.

If anything she knew she'd been distant since Borden's return, and Jayse couldn't help but feel her fear from both herself, and Elettra. Well, maybe she'd need the fairly decent meal. Eyes watching for the blond girl, she spotted her against a tree, just past the hollow's lines. Her high tail wagging she jogged to Aisling's seat, and placed the rockchuck down for her. "Breakfast?" She'd ask, in case she was not hungry. The leader only hoped it help break the cold ice between them.

The girl's jump made Jayse flinch out of instinct, drawing back from the tree for the sake of being safe. When Aisling seemed to realize it was her, well it was much what Jayse had expected. She had been so timid around her lately, and only seemed more so with her so close. Much as her ears wanted to twist back she kept them upon Aisling, setting her raised paw back to the ground. "You sure?" She said, feeling like she was the one forcing food on others these days. Yet she couldn't help, but ask one more time. She hadn't seen her in some time, and wanted to make sure if anything she had one good meal in her.

Rubbing her nose on her shoulder from a temporary itch, she shuffled her front limbs together, curling her tail over them like she usual did. "You okay?" She dared ask the question, and there was a concern in it. She knew it must be hard without Kiche, and she knew Borden's "welcoming" hadn't been the best for her. She doubted she could help it either, it wasn't news her and Borden were two magnets, this time they were pushing each other away instead of coming together.

Her words might as well have been ignored, and an evident frown tugged on her black lips. Everything was so damn hard, and she hated it most because she'd never asked for any of it. Ignoring the kill, mismatched eyes were steady on Aisling wishing to make her feel better. She hated the idea she was afraid of her, and more so what she probably thought of her. Maybe to another it was insane. Shouldn't she have welcomed Borden back with a warm embrace, and kind words? If he'd said goodbye, she probably would have. If he hadn't been gone so long. If he'd came to her first. There was a mile long list, and she couldn't make anyone understand how she felt. It was worse kind of feeling loving someone, and thinking they left you, your children for good. She had thought maybe Aisling would understand, now with Kiche no where. Jaysyek soon decided no matter what Aisling would probably easily accept him back. This cold atmosphere between them, the silence told her maybe she wouldn't because she wasn't very forgiving nor understanding to her.

A sharp sigh, she realized if Aisling could she probably would have bolted, or stuck her head in the ground, anything to escape. She did nod again, she shook her head, her amber eyes meeting her gaze. They hardly looked any different when she first saw her, maybe worse she could not remember. Eyes followd the motion of the tremor of her body, and she was sure her throat went dry. Head cast down, her eyes closed if for a second, and she stared quietly at the ground below her feet. "I'm sorry Aisling. I wish things were different, but I can't change anything. I want to forgive Borden, but it's...hard. And if you...don't want to stay...I understand."

Brush of a cold, wet nose was faintly felt upon her forehead. She did not move, she kept her eyes upon the ground comtemplating her life. It was far from what she'd imagined, and trying to put the puzzle pieces together was not working. Things didn't fit where they were suppose to, and some were missing or didn't seem to belong.

Very slowly her golden eye, and blue eye shift to Aisling's black nose, soft words bringing her ears to stand. She seemed bewildered by the mention of going. Jayse she mustered to sit back up. "Well Aisling you left once, and I'd hate for you to be here....miserable." She said, once more not wanting to hurt the girl, but letting her know she couldn't blame her if she had in mind to go again. She'd thought Kiche was the reason they both had gone, but now she did not know what to think. Who wanted to live in a pack where there was never ending turmoil? Soft sigh rubbed against her throat, and she looked closely upon her creamy coat. She couldn't tell if she was getting enoug to eat, her coat wasn't dull, but it didn't appear bright like before.

"You miss him don't you?" She meant Kiche, and really after meeting him again she missed the orange bugger too. He really had started to change, and she thought things would have been better with him around, for Aisling too. "I miss him, he was....starting to come around." Ears bent, almost touching, and she made a good point to stare at the uneven rows of cedar trees with a lump in her throat. Time was cruel.

Pangur, the cat she claimed as her friend had talked her into going? Maybe he hadn't been a harmless figmant, and her forehead creased against her eyes in troubled thoughts. "I take it Pangur got mad at you when you came back?"She had not forgotten about the mention of him when they'd first met, was this what was wrong with Aisling? Pangur was well not talking to her, or had he convinced her of something else? Her lips drew in a hard line, and she noticed her looking away. The word alone was something she immediately understood, and could relate too. It was something that hung about her these last four months, and even now she couldn't quite shake. She was saddened, at the same time she was relieved not to hear it was something else. She was actually a bit ashamed for bringing Kiche up now.

"I can't say I know how you feel, but feeling alone is something I can relate too," and a wisp of a smile pushed the side of her cheek up; it looked so faint, and was very half hearted. Borden was back, and she did have her children, Aisling, El, and Raigo but still there was this whole inside.

A sad glaze to her eyes, she licked the top of Aisling's head. "Maybe, he'll come back. I know it was hard for him...to be here." It was merely a hopeful thing to say, because there was always a chance, no matter how small, after all Borden had come back. "Hmm, well more friends would be good, you know there's no harm in wandering away from the hollow from time to time." This time her smile seemed more alive, with her eyes focused hoping to cheer the cream girl up.