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my sensible heart - Ranger - Dec 23, 2011 This was the closest she would dare come to Swift River. Ranger had no desire to be killed, which might happen if Ruiko ran into her in a foul temper, but she had to see if he was out and about. Perhaps they would run into each other by chance and it would save her the embarrassment of groveling. But she would probably grovel anyway; she had hurt him too dearly to not beg forgiveness. Perhaps he would forgive her eventually, but she was certain he would never forget. The Wildwood had been their hunting grounds during their months as lone wolves. It was close enough to Swift River to keep Kinis safe, but far enough away to not tread on any toes. She wondered how Ruiko was holding up now that he had been king twice, but forced to step down both times when Indru had decided to return. Ranger walked between the trees, her coat as dark as ever. She was still gaunt and thin, however, her hips and shoulders sticking out through her fur. She had gained a little weight since her return, but not enough to cover her thinness or make her look healthy. She would need a pack this winter in order to simply survive, but she hadn't decided whom to join yet. But before she made her choice, she had to see Ruiko. my sensible heart - Ruiko - Dec 24, 2011 [dohtml] [/dohtml] my sensible heart - Ranger - Jan 04, 2012 Ranger was the definition of solecism: ever breaching good manners and etiquette, especially when it counted. The first time she had disappeared on Ruiko had not been her fault, not entirely. She had nearly died during a hunting accident and a pack outside of the area had cared for her and refused to let her leave until she was healthy enough for travel. Ruiko had forgiven her that easily; how could she have made it home in one piece otherwise? But she had no excuse this time, true or imagined. Ranger had simply left. It was true that a dream had caused her to fear for Ruiko's life and safety, but it was a fever dream, and an inexcusable reason to leave him and Kinis. So it was with great anxiety that she saw him ahead, and wondered how she could have missed his scent, or the sound of his paws hitting on the ground. As she looked up and into his eyes, she saw the flash of pure rage within. At least it's not hatred I see, she thought to herself as she looked down quickly, ears and tail tucking immediately as her body dropped unceremoniously to the ground. He could kill her very easily in her deteriorated state, but she hoped that he would not. That would not be pleasant for either of them, and it would hurt Kinis more than she could imagine. Instead of speaking, however, she simply remained there, cowering beneath his hot gaze. Even at this distance, she could feel the rage rolling off him in waves, darkening with every moment. She surely looked sorry and poorly suited to fight, and she hoped that he would take pity on her and not kill her on the spot. She couldn't speak, but the tears she had been holding back had begun to prick hotly against her lids as she shut them, hoping they would not spill forth and embarrass her further. my sensible heart - Ruiko - Jan 04, 2012 [dohtml] [/dohtml] my sensible heart - Ranger - Jan 04, 2012 There was nothing she could do, especially when she felt the heavy rumble of his threatening step toward her. She knew something was coming, something dangerous and threatening. Her entire body tensed in anticipation, though she would not fight back should he choose to attack. Ruiko had made no noise, however, and simply turned after a moment and stalked away. Breathless with fear and anxious that she would never get another opportunity, her allowed her throat to relax just enough to breathe out, "I'm sorry." She would not dare say his name; she knew that would simply anger him further, cause him to spin around and rip her throat out. Kinis had told her not to seek him out for this very reason. He was angry, but more than that, he was very hurt by what she had done. Nothing could change that now, but she hoped to at least explain herself to him. Whether or not that changed his mind, time could only tell. my sensible heart - Ruiko - Jan 04, 2012 [dohtml] [/dohtml] my sensible heart - Ranger - Jan 15, 2012 She knew it would go like this; she knew that Ruiko would be beyond reasoning with when she finally saw him again. Perhaps it didn't matter to him, but she needed to apologize, to explain what had happened. She had never meant to hurt him; what she did had been done to protect him and Kinis. But the cold, cruel venom present within his voice and words caused her to recoil, tears leaking from beneath her tightly shut lids. No matter how much she mentally prepared herself for this moment, the reality was far different from what she had pictured in her mind. "I won't deny that," she said, speaking slowly at first. Her throat was tight with the held back tears, but she forced herself to be strong, to not allow her voice to waiver. He might see tears rolling down her cheeks into the snow, but he would never hear her sob. She opened her eyes and stared at his paws, not daring to look into his eyes, though she desperately wanted to. "I won't deny that I left you and Kinis. But I did it for you, to protect you." Surely he would scoff at her, but she wanted to tell him, to explain. She didn't care if he didn't understand or believe her; the weight of her burden was lifting with every moment. Forgiveness was all she craved; not love or friendship or mateship. She simply wanted to know that he forgave her. She knew he would never forget. "When I returned, my wound was infected. I had many fever dreams, many that scared me so forcefully that I could not breathe when I woke." Surely he could remember her fitful sleep, the way her body refused to keep more than tiny bites down. "It was in one of those dreams that my father came to me. He told me that being with you and Kinis was only going to cause you harm. That he was going to come here and kill you while I watched." Shaking her head, she closed her eyes again and bowed her neck to him. She was already preparing to expose her belly to him, but at the moment she was simply sprawled on the ground, cowering before her once love. "I could not let that happen. So I left, hoping that my scent trail would lead my father away from you and your family. That you would finally be protected without me here." my sensible heart - Ruiko - Jan 31, 2012 [dohtml] [/dohtml] |