For all intents and purposes, this place was innocent. Just a big, rocky hole in the ground.
So maybe it wasn't so bad. Maybe this place in general wasn't so bad.
That stranger she'd met...He wasn't the worst, which coming from her meant a damn lot, considering she'd seen the worst the world had to offer. And yet, it wasn't as though she was suddenly cured of her debilitating fear of strangers-or more accurately men. She wanted to be over it, it was old news, it had been for the past few months but as much as she wanted to she couldn't just shrug off the weight upon her shoulders. It was crushing her, slowly but surely.
Lenae let out a shaky breath and closed her eyes. How easy it would be to just jump, to forget it all and free fall? Would it hurt, when she hit the bottom? Or would she be at peace? Reunited with those she loved?
She couldn't do it. The thought made her insides curdle and her throat tighten. She'd seen how bodies fell, how they bounced and their bones crunched as they hit rock after rock. If she was going to leave this world...She wanted it to be quiet, peaceful and most importantly, in no way similar to how her kin had died. But now she knew, that she wouldn't always-or rather would rarely ever- get what she wanted in life.
Maybe it would be easier if she cut it short, to eliminate the risk of anymore heartache and suffering. Because she knew for certain she couldn't take anymore, it'd surely break her.
Her thoughts kept swinging back and forth like a pendulum. Maybe she should, maybe she shouldn't? It was a good idea, but then again perhaps it wasn't?