Summer was on the rise. Rook could feel in his whiskers, sense it in the air, and hear it in the trees. Feathered creatures that had migrated last autumn were beginning to return and fill the Cedarwood with their birdsong. Even now, at evening's descent, the western reaches of Relic Lore whispered to the wolf in the sound of distant rustling grasses that change was afoot. Judging by the way his mate's abdomen had swollen greatly over the past few weeks, he was certain that Grizzly Hollow was to receive their third litter - and, soon.
Rook's afternoon of gathering more redcedar bark had been fruitful, with the last of his recent collection going to the old bear den in the south where he realized @Amaryllis was starting to "nest." While he did not dare to roam too far from home, he felt the itch in his limbs and the heartache in his chest. If he had known of things like calendars and the passing of time as humans knew, he might have realized that he was coming up on his birthday and the anniversary of his arrival into the Lore. As it was, he was merely aware of the fact that he was not as young as he used to be. He was without his littermate and twin, without his mother and father, far from his birthplace, and feeling very much alone despite having a pack, a partner, and a mate.
The most prominent of these feelings, he half-refused to acknowledge, was the fact that he missed @Quil. He missed their son, @Tomen, and the life that had crumbled out from beneath them just when he thought it was all going to be okay. Then, all too suddenly, as he stared at the freshly thawed currents of Jasper Rocks, everything hurt. The whole of his body crumpled and folded as he sat on the riverbank, head bowing as he pointed his nose to the earth in defeat. He couldn't remember how he had gotten here. It was overwhelming to try and remember more than the fragments he could remember from summers past.
He felt dizzy.
Inhaling the deepest breath he could muster, he lifted his head to the first glimpses of the stars, unsure of how to make the night pass him by.