It did not matter what anyone else within her makeshift family thought anymore. Ever since her encounter with a few new wolves and a little alone time, she started to realize something. She was getting better, things were starting to clear up for her, and though the man that she wanted to be with her, by her side, she knew that could never be and she knew she had made that clear him the other day when they had met. For once, she had actually feared him and submitted; something she knew she should not have done and fully regretted it now that it was over and done with. She should not have let the man she had fallen for get the best of her, just as she had promised herself when she had become of age. No man had dared push her limits of closeness until now…and when she thought about it hard enough, sometimes she knew that she had enjoyed it. Reveled even, in the proximity of Hotei and wanting him to be closer. She knew that it was never meant to be though, and now she did not know what she was going to do. She definitely knew she was going to stick close to Ice and Corinna’s side – she would never betray her alphas.
Today was another day of her own alone time, just wanting to get away from the pack once more, and hoping that she would not run into Brenton. Now a day, she never knew where the pair stood; she was always trying to avoid him, not wanting to yell at him anymore. She had completely snapped at him and lost her mind. The worst part being….she still did not even care that she had completely lost her mind on him. Actually, she found the scene quite funny when she thought about it sometimes. It made her neutral. She didn’t even regret what she had said, no emotions tied to what she had done, besides amusement. Was she going completely cold hearted on everyone around her? She knew that she would not lose it on Ice, she never had, for she had always felt calm around the other man, a feeling that she could still feel apparently. She just wished someone could help clear some things up with her and not talk to her like she had just completely gone insane. Jessie needed a friend.
The salt-and-pepper colored female strode towards the marshes, liking how the area made her feel secluded from the rest of the world and like it was only her and the water. It would be hard for her though, to hunt and fish. The waters were so murky, it was hard to see through it and it would be a constant game of guessing to try and find a catch, along with scrambling around to kill the fish before it flopped right back into the water if she managed to throw one out. Flattening her ears on her head, she squinted as she looked upon the water, trying to find her own reflection in the midst of the debris within the liquid. With an unhappy sigh, she shook her head and stared across the marsh, the croaking frogs easing her tension and letting her shoulders relax and drop from their uptight position. This was the true meaning of peace; it was always such a shame to remember that everything is not peaceful.