so I'd know yesterday was over
I put all your books on the top shelf
even the one with the four leaf clover
man, I'm getting older
From up here, the waters below appeared like a snaking, metallic reflection of sky cutting right through the heart of the wilderness. So serene, they seemed, as if untouched by the winter winds that blew through the fjord's towering walls of snow-covered earth and forest. It air cut through his coat, stinging his eyes the longer he stood there on the ledge that protruded from the edge of the forest. One misstep and he could have easily toppled over the edge to meet his death. It would be a beautiful death, he thought, his eyes roving up and down the curves of the glacial river from far above. The sky was a deep blue, the sun just beginning its descent from the sky, and it was so wide open that he felt incredibly small. It was as if he were the only thing alive in the world.
He'd needed a couple of days away from the thicket he'd only recently returned to. In the wake of his great disappointment, the confines of the familiar forest seemed too small, the familiar faces he'd been dreaming of for weeks while on the road so expectant...They all had a right to expect lots of things from him, but he just didn't have it in him to give. Not now. Not when he felt so hollow. Mirren did his best to show Lyanna his affection and to give Nina reassurance that he was fine, but in his mind he knew that the emerald eyed woman could see through his facade. Maybe he'd been alright for a while before the world had grown cold, and maybe he'd held things together tightly enough to be the leader his pack deserved, but he couldn't deny even to himself that he needed time to heal ─ something he also needed to do alone.
The great expanse of the north was unfamiliar and he liked that. Throughout the night and for most of the day he'd traveled north and east, the only sign of his passage through the hills and forests the paw prints left behind him in the snow. Though the sky above had not a cloud in it now, even those were sure to be covered by fresh snowfall by morning; plumes of silver-lined clouds drew closer by the hour from the west. Bidding his view of the fjord a reluctant goodbye, the swarthy man retreated into the safety of the winterized forest. Back a ways was an old bear den, where he figured he'd settle for the night, but not before finding something to fill his belly. Slinking quietly through the shadows cast by the conifers as they stood bathed in the last of the day's light, Mirren was accompanied by no sound but the wind.