Sylva paused, watching as her own flesh and blood turned her back on her, alongside the wolf whom she hadn’t even met yet. Sachiel’s words stung deeper than either of the two pups would ever know however. She turned toward the west, a sigh escaping as Sylva realized that one mistake had cost her so much. That fateful night in the cherry orchard, if she had just
not been there that day, she wouldn’t have have bumped into Zilas during her heat, she wouldn't have shattered pack law and fractured her own life.
At the same time though, she realized something else, Hawthorne wouldn’t have been born either, that was one thing, that even though now it hurt, Sylva didn’t regret. The pain soon became replaced by a numbness, a numbness to everything around her. To the east lied the Firs where Jynx and Emrys laid, angry at her. Now, to the south rested theses Falls, where Sylva’s biggest mistake had cost her the only family she had left.
What would she do now? Winter had set in fully and she knew she couldn’t starve off the effects for long, briefly Sylva looked toward the mountain, the mountain’s shadow that she had lived in for so long. Was there new life beyond it? She wasn’t sure, but for now, Sylva knew one thing. She’d have to find someway to live, maybe find a pack. It was the dead of winter, healing was a valuable skill, the last thing she really had left.
The medic paused as a dark thought crossed her mind, as a healer, she sometimes held other wolves lifes within her paws….the wrong herb, something deadly and she could hold the power of death at the same time.
“No…” She said quietly to herself, shifting her gaze toward the lake that rested to the north and behind her. [/b] “It isn’t worth it.” [/b] and she meant it. The small pleasure she had always had when she had been able to help someone, that was all Sylva had left of her old self, and she wasn’t ready to let it go.
FADE