As predicted, Jackdaw didn't sleep at all that night. He spent the entire evening with amber-gold eyes fixed unseeingly into the distance, willfully ignorant of the scratchy heat gathering behind them as well as under his fur. His littermate had had, for once, an equally restless night. While she would sometimes doze for a short while, it was a tense and uncomfortable pretense of sleep. Even as Fenrirs' tongue started to lick a pale dawn into the sky, Falcon had remained in a fitful slumber.
He had deigned not to rouse her too quickly. Both because he wanted to see her steal some more sleep from the chucklevoodoos but also for his own selfish desires. He didn't want the countdown to start quite yet, he hadn't commited her tawny pelt perfectly to his memory-stone.
But it was as fucking useless as it was selfish. Falcon awoke, with less pep than she usually would but once again Jackdaw was selfishly thankful for her subdued nature. His nerves were chewed to ribbons by chucklevoodoos and he might just snap at his sister without concious thought. Well, with more venom than he usually would anyway.
He returned her greeting lick with one of his own, snuffling at her sound-sensors briefly. He let her lead the way, weaving a path through the Forest of Disembowelment.
At some point, he broke briefly from her company as they passed a freshwater pond. He stayed by the waters edge silently for what he hoped was a very long time before plunging his head in, coming out with a thrashing fish. He hadn't crushed it, simply took off after Falcon while it struggled in its' death throes. It eventually went still.
This wasn't a snack for the journey, this prey was a gift. Fish were a treasured prey were he came from. Alright, not really but the glacial lakes held a scarce population which was closely monitered. Over-hunting would wipe the fish out, and then they'd never have fish again. Good job, shitlickers. So, it was a special treat used only in specific rituals.
Like the one he was planning. Perhaps the mark of respect would secure Falcon a place within the Pack after he was bled out on the boarders to warn off other Tresspassers.
Being left in the confines of his own think-flesh all night had given him time to run over things. He knew he'd essentially be leaving Falcon on her own and at the mercy of this Pack. He still feels a horrid, gnawing guilt at the thought and a defiant fire that starts in his chest, rebelling loudly against the idea. He was now just repeating to himself that it'd be for the best, hopefully. He wanted to take comfort in the fact that bitches were more respected than brutes most of the time. They often held more power. They were faster, smarter and could be generally more cunning and cruel than brutes. They could also bring life to the Pack, make it stronger. Tor herself, Goddess of the moon, was more often prayed to than her brother Fenrir.
But then, this had never stopped his kin from abusing Falcon.
He longed to shut off his think-flesh but exhaustion was starting to creep around the edges of his skull, looking for a way in. It was making his thoughts a little fuzzy.
Jackdaw blinked from his useless, circling thoughts and scowled at Falcon. He liked to believe he was entirely horrifying even with a limp fish in his damn mouth, thank you very fucking much.
He rolled his eyes, of course she doesn't fucking know where to go the dumb ass, and lowers his nose to the floor while his ears ram forward in case of surprise attacks while his head is down. It's difficult at first to get over the over-powering stench of fish oil, thank fuck in a nest that he didn't bite into it and cause it to bleed, but he eventually gts stale impressions of tracks and trails worn by many paws. His hackles are already up, movements stiff and jerky at the scents of so many strange wolves hitting the back of his throat.
He's fucking walking to his death. Strolling, if you will.
He keeps going in the direction his sister indicated, tail most deffinately not flicking nervously. Maybe they'll have the courtesy to make his death quick, he thinks with a resigned sort of disdain.
(This post was last modified: Jul 27, 2014, 06:40 PM by Jackdaw.)