Perhaps something good will come of their interaction.
<blockquote><i>Fair enough</i>, he thought quietly. <i>His past?</i> The male went still for a moment, the life seemingly slipping from his chilling eyes. Flashes of faint childhood memories - the oldest he could remember - streaked through his senses. <i>The smell of saltwater. Gentle, navy and foam waves lapping upon a rocky, pebbled shore. His footprints in grey sand before being washed away like the rest of his life, or what would have been his life.</i> He hadn't shared his past, his story with anyone - not even Jaysyek - but then again...she'd never really delved that far.
Now emotionless, quieted by the heaviness in his head, he watched the female's mannerisms and the way she attempted to make sense of the confusion he'd apparently caused in her. It was understandable, after all he had been...well...ready to rip her head off, or anyone else's. Although he wasn't the friendliest, or most caring or compassionate being, he was still alive, burdened by emotion and regrets, and <i>memories</i>, as everyone was, in their own rights.
A gentle sigh escaped from beneath his breath as he watched Vlarindara settle into a drift of snow, and the coal figure mindlessly layed down not far from her. He was in no way comfortable talking about things he'd worked so hard to push from his mind and memory, but in a way, somehow, his despair would be safe with her.
<b>"I was born into a small pack, not far from the sea,"</b> he started, his voice monotonously recounting what he could remember. <b>"...Sometimes I still dream of the gulls' songs..."</b> This was torturous. The male gulped down the feelings of weakness. <b>"It was a small pack, my parents and uncle and I...I had two littermates, a brother, <i>Senna</i>, and a sister, <i>Beya</i>..."</b> <i>Names he would respectfully pass to his children, should he ever see fatherhood.</i> <b>"She did not survive to leave the den. My brother- well I have yet to solidify a conclusion concerning his whereabouts, or whether he's even alive."</b> The words were like a whisper as his brows pulled together in a hard line.
<b>"My parents were killed by an expanding pack, unable to fend for us all and our territory after my father's brother was lost during the snows of my first winter."</b> That was all he could offer the female, for lack of concern for the details. It was by no means a tragic end to a notable family, which was the hardest part to swallow; they were simply lost now, gone, as though swept away by the ocean's waves, with no one but himself to care or tell their stories. No one to remember them, no one to learn from their hardships and perseverances...<i>No one to comfort him as he wandered from their demises.</i>
And he did wander, for many seasons, each drawing him further from the saltwater that was the strongest reminder of what parts of the world actually meant something to him. He did not find another home, another pack, until he'd found Jayse and the Hollow that superficially filled the shameful emptiness suffered by the Attaya male. Shame stemming from the lack of a legacy to continue, his lack of meaning.
His eyes slowly looked for her one, a part of him hoping that she would lack judgment of his modest mediocrity.</blockquote>
(This post was last modified: Feb 10, 2012, 07:00 PM by Kade.)