<blockquote><ul>this is going to be really bad probably. haven't done any roleplaying in FOREVER.</li></ul>
He sank deeper and deeper into the welcoming, cold embrace of the snow with every step, unsure of what he was really doing any more. He had been torn completely in two by nature and God, and no longer knew where it was that he belonged. Civilization had called to him a number of times, and he had run towards it with a desperate hope of stumbling upon his home, but he never found it. Now the call was growing fainter, hushed by the richness of the wilderness that folded in all around him. A number of times now, he had tried to escape Relic Lore, only to find himself borne back to the savage country by forces beyond his understanding. Was it God that brought him back? He couldn't say, he had stopped answering those questions a long time ago. Whenever they resurfaced, he usually just shoved them aside.
Now, however, the forsaken wolf let the question float around in his mind and ricochet of the walls of his skull. <i>Is there a reason for any of this?</i> Kiche didn't want to have to come back to Relic Lore. He longed to leave everything behind, every leaf and tree and face that had belonged to friend or foe. Fear had cast him out the first time, and desperation to return to Aisling had called him back, yet he found himself on the outside looking in again. And now, although he longed to return to the familiar, he feared the few friends he had made most of all. He feared their snarls and sense of abandonment, their blame and their cold shoulders. These thoughts were accompanied by the undertones of habit and self-hatred. <i>You dirty, dirty heathen. You're one of them. You miss them. How dare you. How dare you forsake Pangur and come crawling back... but not for your God, but for your HEATHENS. You disgusting, fallen creature.</i>
"<b>God damn it!</b>" He shouted in an explosive burst of frustration that he could not contain. Kiche spun around, his jowls snapping wildly. His faded orange fur was missing in patches, and the skin sagged like curtain folds on his skeletal frame. What had once been an imposing, looming presence was diminished by the weight loss. All that remained was a thin, long shadow, a pathetic remnant of the creature he'd once been.
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