Alos note that Burn and Hotei are having serious issues with control of their body right now.
Thread Dated around 1/23/2013
Burn snarled forcing his working legs to a stop. The black wolf closed his eyes growling silently at himself.
I can't stay there. It's..just too much.. And none of them like me.. Hotei argued snarling back at the air alone.
It doesn't matter if they don't like you. Besides there's the one woman.. Burn turned his muzzle in the other direction trying to turn and head back to Jessie and the alpha. But the black wolfs head was yanked upwards by an invisible force keeping him from fully turning around in his tracks.
Jessie... Hotei's heart began to ache. He did love the gray fea, but that was the very reason he had to leave her. Hotei would cause too much trouble if he stayed in the pack. The weaker half of consciousness began to lose control of his body to Burn who took a few steps back the way he'd come. Until Hotei stopped him once again.
That's why we can't go back. She needs to have the pack. She needs to be happy with them. Everything would turn to hell if we went back..Especially with you and the white brute. Hotei pleaded to Burn who'd stopped moving again and thought of Ice. The new boss back at Swift River. How he hated the ignorant wolf. His annoyance of the white man would surely heighten is Burn were to head back. Burn realized dimly that Hotei was right. If they were to head back Burn probably wouldn't be able to stop himself from challenging Ice at every corner. All that would do was break the pack apart from the inside. Then Jessie wouldn't know what to do.
Hotei regained control of his body while Burn thought about Ice. Then he turned himself back around and continued to force himself away from the few members of his family that were left.
We won't be happy by running away and finding another family to live with. Leaving them will make us just as bad as Indru. Burn argued weakly no longer wanting to argue with the all too kind side of his personality.
No we might not ever be truly happy for a long time, but at least the pack will survive while we are gone. It won't crumble as we try to live fitfully with Ice. Jessie will be happy, she will..find.. another.. to make her happy perhaps.. Maybe Ice.. With that Burn snarled and stopped their traveling. Just the thought of Jessie being close with Ice sent him into a fury. The same thought sent Hotei into a sort of depression.
Hotei... Haven't we always been alone... Alone among the shadows dancing alongside the flames? Forget them, as I did after the fire took our first family away. Hell.. Those Swift River wolves were never family to start with. Hotei whimpered at Burn's snarls and forced himself forward again.
Unwittingly the confused dark wolf had been traveling right for the place where the memories hurt him the most. The Hidden Tree. His birthplace. As soon as Burn noted the area Hotei released a whine that turned to a low sad howl. He didn't want to be alone forever. He wanted to be with a pack. The burnt males heart screamed. Hotei wanted to go back but knew he could not."Why does everything have to be this way...." Burn was silent as Hotei took over staring at the den which looked so tiny now.