As the figure of his mother had left the lands around him, Adonis had crept ever so quietly from the cranny his mother had told him to hide in. His wet nose wriggles as he tested the air, checking for the scent he had known all his life, the only one that had stuck around, to make sure she was long gone before he starting to lope down the path they had come here. He had spotted some great views on the way up the heights and he was dying to take a look at them again. Maybe he would step really close to the edge... he knew he'd never be allowed to do that if she had been around... and he so wanted a good look.
His run was awkward, his legs had grown before the rest of him, shooting outwards whilst the rest of his body remained behind, growing slowly. He was almost half the height of his mother now, which was far too tall. Not that he knew of any wolves his age to compare himself against, he just knew he was too tall. He felt wrong, not just outside but inside as well. He didn't feel his four months of age, more like four years with the ordeals he had already faced. Right now he should be tumbling around his den, playing with his siblings, learning from his pack mates. Sure, he'd wished to explore the world but the hadn't expected to do it so soon. So early that his childhood which had just begun, already felt like it had ended.
As his leather pad slapped the earth he picked up speed. He was surprisingly fast, but he supposed he lacked the muscle to be heavy, though his footfalls were still very heavy footed and clumsy. He didn't get to run often, so the feeling was strange to him, but enjoyable all the same. If this is what fun felt like, he thought he might enjoy it. He'd experienced it so little, he just had no idea.
The wind whooshed in his large ears, forcing them back against his handsome face, whilst the world whizzed past him in a blur. Alright sure, most things were a blur to him, well... half of them at least, but going this fast the world zoomed by and he didn't have time to take it all in. He felt like he was flying. He felt like he was free!
All too soon the rocky path beneath him started to thin, and the end of the world approached rapidly. He slammed on the breaks, skidding to a halt but with a good distance between himself and the edge. His pink tongue hung from his mouth, bobbing up and down as he caught his breath. Geez, he felt so unfit! He needed more exercise, more than just walking around like someones shadow... but, that is what he was. All he was. A shadow. His life up to this point had been the same, day in and day out, following the heels of his mother, watching her slip further and further both in body and mind. Nothing ever changed, except her. The places they visited were ... dull, for he took no pleasure in them. He met no other wolves. His mother was too scared to expose him and hid him away. She said it was to protect him, but he had come to the conclusion she was ashamed of him. Why else would she go to the trouble of making sure he was hidden so well, that even she walked past him on occasions if she didn't want the world to see him? He knew it was because of his... problem. His blurred vision in the one eye made him not perfect, and she had deserved perfect. He never questioned her. In fact, he had never even told her of his eye sight issues, but he thought she knew. He thought she was ashamed, that he was a burden she just didn't have the heart to leave behind.
She barely spoke to him now, other then to tell him to hide. She used to sing lullaby's, songs that would scare away the visions of blonde that haunted his dreams. Of teeth and darkness. Her voice would sooth his aches from the long days walk. Of the turmoil in his mind that he was broken. Now... she said nothing.
Before him the morning sun was still climbing in the sky. Kissing the land of lore before it with warm finger tips and rays thick as waves. The sight was glorious, but with his trail of thought he didn't see the beauty in it. He saw little else but the edge of the cliff and slowly but surely, he edged his way closer. One paw after the other until his toes almost touched the edge. A scuffle of pebbles shifted under his weight and tumbled to their death, but he stood still and strong. His strange coloured eyes looked out upon the land, half taking in the beauty and half only guessing what the shadows and colours were that he could just about make out. He took in a deep breath. Allowing the clean air to fill his lungs before he exhaled slowly, enjoying the sweet morning dew upon the breeze. A bird chirped from behind, and he craned his head to get a better look at a lark skipping a few feet down upon a rock. He looked so happy. Chirping away, ruffling his feathers to stand up to the wind which tried to knock him down. He looked so free.
Adonis looked down at his toes as they hovered over the edge, before he took a last look at the land before him. Around his neck he could almost imagine a tie, something choking him, telling him to return to where he was left. He didn't want to embarrass his mother if someone saw him. Before he turned to leave, he took one last look at the bird who continued to chip such a happy song, and a sadness which often lingered beneath his bones, surfaced for a moment.
Oh to be free.