She had remained for days after Shade's death, haunting the pack lands in silence. Often, the ghostly female would leave for hours, even a day or two unannounced, to travel to the waterfalls that she and Shade had discovered. There, she could allow her heart to imagine that maybe, just maybe, it would all be but a terrible dream, and she would be woken by the dark males muzzle touching her side. But never did she wake with another nearby, she always woke alone. It was now ten days after Shade's death, and Spectre was having a hard time dragging herself out of the slippery slope of mourning she had fallen into. The once alpha had fallen silent, having spoken little since the death of her mate. She had tried to spend time with the two pups he left behind - but they both appeared more attached to Anastasia than they were to the mate their father took after Rose. She found as she stayed, the longer she stayed, the angrier and more hate filled she became. Why did he have to be such a righteous idiot!? What hold did this..Roselia have on him even after he said he loved her? She was jealous of the invisible female that had stolen her mate from her. Yes, Roselia had given him pups, but she had taken his life as well. It was because of /her/ that Shade was dead. And Spectre felt a rage building in her heart towards a wolf she had never met. So help the other if she ran into her.. Spectre knew she would blame her until the end. It was.. much easier than blaming herself for not being there. For not jumping in in time to save the dark pelted male. She had spoken to few of the pack members since Shade's death. Actually, Spectre could not remember speaking to any of them, come to think of it. She knew that there were others that would do better in her position as Second.. and that staying here where everything was just a reminder of what she had lost was only going to be impossible. A strange static had taken over her thoughts, a lack of care for her appearance had left her fur matted and tangled. With the occasional burr or debris stuck in the longer furs. Her weight had dropped substantially, and where she had once boasted a trim ninety five pounds, she now weighed less than eighty. The lack of will to eat had done that, the constant movement, lack of sleep. It was all wreaking a silent battle on the female, and she knew that in order to survive.. To find Roselia and do to her what she did to Shade, she had to move elsewhere. She had to get away from the pack, she had to find a new home, a new place to settle down and plan her revenge. With the death of her mate, had any of her thoughts been spoken aloud, some might realize just how fractured the mind of the previously gentle soul had become. How firm on the singular thought of revenge she had settled. She would not rest until the one responsible for Shade's downfall also lay bleeding and broken on the ground. Spectre had no idea if Roselia was even alive any longer. But she had to turn her mind to something to keep her thoughts somewhat in tact and not drown in the pain of losing the dark male. Sure, she could blame Elettra, the dark female who killed him, but she was not the root cause. No. It was whatever hold the witch-woman had on Shade that caused him to lose his mind and attack a wolf without warning. Without the backing of his own pack to keep him safe. It was because of Roselia that he had done what he did. That he had died. Spectre turned away from her den she had once shared with Shade and approached the borders of pack lands, a slow, but steady pace. She had initially intended to simply leave, but instinct told her it was best to speak to at least Ace, or Anastasia and alert them to her intentions of leaving. With her muzzle lifted to the evening skies, Spectre howled, calling for Ace or Anastasia. She cared little that her voice was weak and the note barely held for lack of use over the last two weeks. If they chose not to come, then she would leave as she had initially intended. Without warning and in silence. However, she found herself curious if the two leaders would be angry at her for having basically kept to herself for the last ten days. But then, she wondered in the recesses of a mind that was slowly being twisted by thoughts of revenge, if she would even care. "Speak" |
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