"I'm so sorry Bird.." Just. Like. That. It was as though the flood gates had opened yet again, but this time it was much worse than when he had first told Namid, worse than when he had broken down while discussing with Bishop what he was going to do to stop all of it - the fits of confusion, hysteria, the forgetfulness, and every single instance in which someone - his mother, his sisters, namely - had cried on Borden's expense. His nostrils felt like their were burning. It was just too bad that Beren had not been older, much more practiced in a craft or lifeskill like herbalism or religion-defying alchemy. He was already at the brink of considering alternative medicine now that the last days of summer had passed him by. Beren continued to assure him, to comfort him with both simple sentiments and the questions he should have reconsidered.
Did Rook know a healer? Did the pack have a healer? He supposed he did, since Whisper Caverns did have Kassander, but Rook had not yet worked up the courage or found the time to actually, formally, meet the botanist first-hand. What Titan had suggested to him, had been the start of it all, but it seemed now that Rook had wasted his time in making it up to the prince and Narimé for their consideration to house both him and his sister. The corners of his eyes stung with the tears that threatened to well up against his blue and gold irises. Not so clever boy... How could he have been so stupid?
Beren persisted, especially when Rook held still, never saying anything or even moving as much as an inch, "Where is your father? Maybe he has a healer with him right now who is helping him." The masked boy shook his head, his rounded ears falling back. His frustration with himself was starting to take its toll on him, the skepticism of everything - his prayers which were still left unanswered, his faith in God, his trust in the Holy Spirit - encroaching on what remained of his confidence in himself.
When offered to go for a walk, he finally looked up at his darker age-mate, the uncertainty smoothing his face over in an expression of distress. A small, cub-like whimper sounded from him. as he stood up stiffly. "Okay," he quietly agreed. "Let us go then." But, he did not wait for Beren to lead the way and, instead, decided to choose a direction at random, himself. After walking for so long in silence, five or ten minutes or so, it seemed that Rook had recovered himself, but his saddened tone still lingered, "My Aunt Aniu should have known what to do. It was because she didn't have the right plants... the right materials. He isn't in pain apart from his limp, anything that spares him that discomfort sedates him completely, but not even that spares him from confusion. It's like he goes somewhere in his head without telling us and, sometimes, when he comes back, he doesn't know what had just happened."