For @Rook <3 ;; Sunny, 38F, mid-afternoon.
The sun, sparkly and delightful as it seemed on a crisp autumn afternoon, proved to be a wee bit of a liar. While it had warmed some since peeking up over the horizon and stretching its rays across the forests of Relic Lore, the overall temperature could still be described as nippy or brisk. That there was a bit of a breeze nibbling at his black nose, sending chills rippling down his spine as he broke into a jog – it was a race he couldn’t win, and all the same, Veho had yet to accept that Mother Nature had bested him once more. Perhaps if he’d erected a barricade before the porcupine attack, his cache wouldn’t have been demolished in mere moments. If the animal had never come, though, would he have constructed a barrier at all? If it wasn’t a nosy rodent, perhaps it would be the Cut Rock River flooding up well past its banks, or—
Well, there were plenty of ‘what ifs’, but the problems the medic was currently faced with stood. There were a scarce few items left in his cache. Some hellebore, a bit of hyssop, some lilac. All useful things, no doubt, but he’d been able to treat a much wider variety of ailments and illnesses on a few weeks ago – and a few weeks ago, Veho also had the ability to depart from Grizzly Hollow and seek out any medication his supply currently lacked. Now, a week or so after the season’s first snow, there was little left to the earth that wasn’t already brown or dying. What remained, he had plenty of: his favorite mushrooms.
The male cringed a bit at the thought, remembering vividly how desperately he sought the disorienting embrace only a few days beforehand. Rook had found him there, near the brink of tears – how this year had changed him. Only this spring, he was a lone vagrant allowing the wind to guide his feet and the Ancestors his mind. There was little thought dedicated to his own wants and needs, outside of maintaining health and healing abilities, and the itch to keep moving from one place to the next was constant. Guilt had been conquered, for a time, laid to rest by acts of kidness.
And then he met Rook Lyall, and the whole world changed. It was like spending your whole life looking at the world in shades of grey – then he walks in, and color blooms from his heart, washing across your world like an array of watercolors painted only by the most talented of artists. Everything looked different now. Pack life was nothing he’d expected, was nothing he thought he wanted, and here he’d found a place to build, a place to heal, and even friends among his packmates. @Titan had proven to be a particularly able young man, and he could only hope to further their partnership as they rode out winter – once, he feared they might begin a rivalry, sharing one role and medical den. Thankfully, the opposite was true. @Piety sprung to mind next, the delicate dove he so wished to protect, and not long after came @Tomen, the prince so loved by all his people.
It was good, here. But Veho was different, and while his latest discussion with his lover had laid rest to some of his demons, it was difficult to put them all to bed when old terrors kept rising up from their graves. You could have saved Neha, they used to sing. You should have saved Borden, they whispered to him now, prying happily at his guilt. And while it was probably true there was little he could have done to help the man, it hurt Rook, and the pack, all the same – and so on this sunny, cheerful day, it drove the wolf from his den anyways, searching through the forest and under fallen trees, unaware of his surroundings as he sought out anything he could possibly use. Anything to prove his worth. Doesn’t cost me to be nice, but nothing gets you nothing, he thought, tail swirling behind him as he trotted on. To have his place, he would earn it. Nothing done would get him nothing in return. He was worth more than nothing.
& all I see is him and me forever and forever