Weather
Just past dusk
13 F, -11 C
His chest hurt. Badly. It felt like he couldn’t breathe, couldn’t think straight, couldn’t really get a hold of himself. Kova was gone, he had no clue where he’d went. Kino had spent the past few days looking for him, hardly sleeping, barely eating. When he hadn’t come back after two days, the silver boy knew something was wrong. He’d tried to track his brother’s scent, but only came up with dead end after dead end. Then, a certain feeling of fresh grief settled heavily on his frame. The like-pelted yearling had been the last bit of remaining family that Kino had had, the only one who had decided to stick by him when he’d struck out on his own. And now, he was alone. Horribly, horribly alone and while he had felt as though he’d always been alone, it occurred to him now that he hadn’t been. While in the pack he’d had Marianna, and outside of it he’d had Kova. Now…there was nothing.
But, was there really?
Briefly, through the pain, flashed the image of Sahalie. She’d made him laugh for the first time in a long time, and been able to bring a smile to his face. She was, by any definition, his friend. He pondered on it, whether or not he was ready to continue with a life within the confines of another family. Whether or not his curse would break them apart too, but Kino was selfish. He was incredibly, stupidly selfish and found himself hating the feeling of abandonment. He didn’t want it, wanted to shed it like a snake did its skin. And thus, he wound his way towards the borders of Sahalie’s pack. He stopped a few feet away, shifting from foot to foot. A few times he turned around and took a few steps, considering leaving, but then he’d turn around and come back then repeat the process. There was so much apprehension inside of him, so much betrayal and so much want that he thought he would burst. Then, he took a deep breath and tilted his head back and released a call. It was weak and vaguely indecisive, but once it was out it was over with. He stood there, shivering in the cold, topaz gaze drifting up to the darkened sky. His auds laid on his head and he sighed. I miss you, mom.