She felt
quite ill.
When the summons rang out, Rue flinched, ears twisting towards it half-heartedly. That was the sound of a wolf calling everyone together. And Rue was part of that everyone, and she hated to think what the consequences were for not attending something like that. Her mother had tugged on her ears and boxed her nose for failing to come when called, and that was just when it was the four of them! The thought gave her pause, and she imagined Serach chewing one of her ears with a helpless giggle. But it wasn't a nice kind of giggle. It was the kind of giggle which desperately hid the fact that she wanted to be sick.
She was pretty sure that none of them knew. Triell was way too gracious to tell them, but that didn't take away the fact that
Rue knew what she'd done. And now Serach was in charge. She'd only just arrived and look, she was upsetting the natural order of things already! Maybe Dray was right... maybe she wasn't cut out for living with others. Maybe this was a mistake.
Imagining all the other dutiful Bend wolves making their way to the dens, Rue moaned and flopped onto the ground, writhing about in her inability to cope with all these
feelings. "I don't wannaaaaa," she whined, and heard
Ruenna, you're a grown-up now, echoed back without prompting,
behave like it. With a last, unhappy grunt, the girl rolled over onto her feet and started to stomp towards the meeting.
With every step, it got a little easier. While the idea of facing them all with the weight of
what she had done on her shoulders, none of them knew, and there were so many faces she had been previously excited to see. Darrah would be there, and Sahalie, and the others who were at the hunt, and Spieden, and maybe the puppies! No, wait, of course the puppies, because the mothers could hardly attend and not bring them! Oh, that would be fun! By the time she could see and hear them gathered, Rue hesitated out of sight just long enough to shake the residual signs of reluctance from her posture and strode forward, tongue lolling free of a carefree grin and tail wagging happily behind her. They might have been family, but in some ways, they were still strangers. They wouldn't be able to see past her cheerful outside to see the flailing mess of guilty panic inside.
There were so many gathered, so many new faces to put to names, and she suppressed a shriek of delight at the sight of the children. They were lucky this was an important, formal meeting, because while Rue might not have any practice with them, she understood it well enough to know to contain herself for now.
"Whaddup," she whispered as she came up behind where @
Darrah and @
Sahalie were sat next to each other, poking each of their cheeks with her nose in greeting and sitting just behind and between them. She glanced at Triell, but could only manage to smile at him for a moment, because out of them all, he was the only one who might have any idea.
Serach's face was easier to look at, so she settled her attention there, tail slowing to a stop as she waited to see exactly how this was gonna go down.