Even as he left the mountains behind and descended to the east, Mace couldn't shake the heavy weight of what Iyes had told him. He wanted to. He wanted to continue on thinking that the Attaya family was more than a clan of shadowy creatures incapable of committing permanently to anything, but Mace didn't believe that, himself. He wanted to, desperately, but he was exactly as she'd described. A transient shadow, always moving and never able to stay. That had always been his life, and stability seemed like something he only had in temporary snaps.
He didn't want to be that wolf anymore, he realized as he squeezed between the tightly packed trees sprouting from the harder ground of the fen. The weather had taken a sudden turn for the wintry and the ground was accordingly stiff, but there was still something rebarbative about the fen. In the muggy heat of summer, he thought it would be its own kind of hell, one he would not return to if given the choice.
His time with The Bloodbreakers hadn't made him feel like a permanent fixture. It was always meant to be temporary. Perhaps he would have left it some time before, if not for Tinley. His daughter had tethered him there, but even she wasn't enough to bridle him for long. Maybe it was just their destiny to wander the earth, never finding what they wanted. Maybe that was the Attaya legacy. Weighed down by these thoughts, Mace didn't notice the frigid water he was approaching until he tripped over a root and stumbled directly into it with a sudden gasp as its chill seeped immediately into his bones.