Three healthy cubs—two girls, one boy—slept safe and sound nestled against the side of their mother, swaddled in her black fur and the loving shadow of their father. The frantic rush of the first few days, the extra hunting, the panting in the sun, the wolves attracted as if by magnetism to the birthing den, had faded into a kind of contentment for Ice. They were lucky to be rather few, but also rather capable; their caches were filled, fresh game was brought back to Aponi almost daily, and Serach was a sentinel no one could get past. Ice was content to leave them alone for a few days, skirting down south in an arc, mapping out the activity of loners in the region. There were no direct threats.
He didn't need to go this far south—the Dragonfly Fen was far beyond where a real threat to the new generation of Bend wolves lurked, but Ice didn't care. That wasn't why he went there. That wasn't why he forced his way through the soggy spring ground, wet and mushy with the melted snows and spiring fresh greens. He forced his way further into its heart for his own sake.
It had been four years since he'd last made his way into the Verdant Mosses and their rolling green grounds, and that time, it had been at the head of an army coming to destroy the sick invaders—those who had taken Rissa from them. He hadn't had the time, nor desire, to go down there when they moved the pack, and.. it hadn't felt right to go, until now. He had visited Rissa's Rest, just to bring the memories back to life, remind him of why they'd done what they'd done, but here... This place, murky light filtering down to touch the lush ground, had memories, and reminders, too.
This was part of the reason they were in the Spectral Woods now, why Serach and Sceral hadn't been River wolves, too. Here lay the courage and the suffering and the pinnacle of the pain they had caused—enough to rile the packs of the Lore and send them against them. Ice swallowed. The ground was familiar. It was even roughly the same season.
What he hadn't expected was to find another wolf at the site where they had fought. It was a tall, murky creature, black in the shadows, brown where the faint sun struck him; he was pawing at something, ivory white covered with dirt and filth and rot, green moss. A.. a skull? It looked like a skull, some fangs cracked or missing, the others smiling in defiance of time. It sent a chill down Ice's spine, and like a ghost he drew up behind the stranger—he searched for words, but found none. In silence he peered at the bleached bones, memories of the clash replaying in his head.
It seemed thousands of years ago.
The young wolf looked up, and it took Ice's breath away.
Suddenly, he was back in the moment—Elettra's voice calling the Aniwayan out on her bluff—the fog hanging thick underneath a large, brilliant full moon. The entire world bathed in shadows and silver light, an army as the Lore has never seen since rippling in the pallid light. Breath fogging from a myriad of open maws, revenge burning hot in their chests, or else just the need to protect what they still had.
Aiyana, leaving with Borden. Was it a direct consequence of Rissa's death?
The snapping of teeth. Savage growls. A chill crawled down Ice's white spine, hair rising in its wake; he jerked half a step forward, fangs flashing, low thunder rumbling in his chest. It can't be, the rational part of him was saying as his tail went ramrod stiff, he's dead, you killed him.
But he was there, looking at Ice with the same amber eyes, set in the same rich brown face, mottled, lanky body—just younger, and less dead. Slyscar had bled out in Ice's mouth. There was no way he could come back from the dead and walk the land again, a ghost haunting his tomb—for that was what this was. It was his bones his lookalike had turned over, or at least, near enough.
It took a huge effort of will to not leap at the stranger and tear his face off. Only seconds of Ice's furious display had passed, but his twitching lips began to crawl down over his teeth, his growl fading into a charged silence. "Who are you?" he demanded of the other wolf, his voice rougher than usual, full of disbelief and gravel and sharp, jagged things—memories and teeth.
The stranger was..brave. He stood his ground, but he didn't attack, for which Ice was grateful. He didn't want to fight him. That wasn't his intention. It was just—the memory. The surge of adrenaline. The ghostly night. All the wrongs committed. His heart was hammering in his chest, and his mouth tasted like ashes. It was so wrong. Ghosts weren't real. The dead didn't come back to life if they had died, well and truly died, their bodies emptied and cold. Everything in him yelled that it was Slyscar, somehow reborn, standing in front of him, but it couldn't be. That kind of thing just didn't happen. There had to be some other explanation.
Bane. It wasn't a name he recognized, but the face... Ice drew a deep, shuddering breath. "I'm sorry. I'm—I'm Ice. It's just, you look so much like someone. And they're dead. Here. Right here," he said, and one of his paws batted at the lichen-covered bones. Right fucking here. He looked down at the remains. How many years now? Four? Four. Four. He looked at Bane again. Four.
Could be. Shit. Could also not be. And that would be better. Much, much better.
Could also be unrelated. Could be Ice was slowly, slowly losing his grip. He was, after all, old.
What do you say to ghosts?
Ghosts aren't real. What do you say to what is, potentially, the cub of a mad man you murdered, in cold blood? Sorry? Ice blinked, did his best to slow his racing pulse, his racing thoughts; there was no connection, just an appearance, and there could be a thousand reasons for why this Bane happened to look like Slyscar. Hells, he could have two parents that were orange-eyed and chocolate-furred, and their names wouldn't be Sly and Scar and it would be a perfectly acceptable explanation.
And besides, he didn't know what to think of that crusade half a lifetime ago; crowning achievement in a guardian's life, or a vicious act of brutality? Needless violence? The female, she hadn't been sick—had they needed to purge her as well..?
For her part in Rissa's murder, yes, the dark voice in his mind rumbled, and he was willing to accept that blindfold and live with the unsatisfying results of vengeance. He was supposed to protect, and that included avenge, and preemptive strikes; he shouldn't have a conscience, or doubts. Be like Marsh, who lived in a world of black and white, where Ice was the only acceptable gray. He swallowed, and gazed away across the mosses. "A sick wolf," he finally replied, his voice quiet, but rough, somehow, as if he couldn't quite wash the past and growls from it. "And his sick friends." The white scruff on the back of his neck lifted, then flattened, and he turned his silver eyes back to Bane.
"Did you ever hear about a sickness? Four years ago. We started finding dead animals, frozen in twisted positions, foams at their mouths.. and this pack of wolves started haunting Eden, for at the time, a path across the Serpent hadn't been found." Ice blinked again, the exaggerated, slow movement soothing his frayed nerves. "And, well.. they died. Here. For every bad thing they did to us," but it hadn't been enough, for one of them had fled, and it had taken Marsh's life to stop him. Ice's ears flattened to his head, but he said nothing. It hurt too much.