But I put it out of my mind Long enough to call it courage To live without a lifeline
She had known this was going to hurt, and truly she had started to prepare herself for the pain… however, when it started to roll through her, she had stolen away and curled up, doing her best to breathe. She gave herself the same advice that she had given others. She felt like she could hardly think, and she started to panic. He closed his eyes, breathing in through her nose and out through her mouth as her claws scraped anxiously at the ground. She could do this. Her body would not have given her children if she couldn’t do this… or, if it would, then she didn’t want to think about that right now.
“Breathe. Breathe Ene, breathe.” She scolded herself lightly. She had been prepared, keeping the necessary herbs collected in the den that had been carefully selected to be her birthing den. She went for the sweet grass first. She could do this. She had helped deliver pups before… so delivering her own was surely going to be the same idea, even if it was incredibly difficult for her to concentrate, right? She couldn’t do this alone. She knew she couldn’t do this alone. She let out a short call and just hoped there was someone nearby, preferably @Aleister but honestly anyone’s presence would do right now. A part of her yearned for @Moonshadow because the woman had done this before, and more than once and she had been such a comforting presence before.
She just had to remember her training and try and block out the pain. It was pain with a purpose. It was her body’s way of bringing children into the world and she just needed to roll with it.