Siyet didn’t quite seem to want to look at him, but.. the smile that grew across her countenance was no less apparent because of it. Her words prompted him to laugh a little, in return - she
had asked him first, after all, but he’d wanted to be sure the desire was mutual. And it was, it appeared. Jethro smiled back.
Until something else occurred to him, after her touch. Then the expression faltered as he realized.. or more accurately,
recalled what becoming a parent would entail. And Jethro felt a feeling he hadn’t experienced in a while overtake him. Uncertainty, disgust even, to the point where it almost felt like his throat was constricting. It became harder to breathe, even, and almost unconsciously he found himself pulling away from Siyet slightly.
Something he realized he ought to explain, so he took a breath to try.
”I agree. I.. just wish we could skip the.. uh.. the whole touchy-feely thing. And the part where.. you have to be in a lotta pain and discomfort for two moons after that.” Because in spite of how much progress he had made over the last year and a half,
nothing would ever make
that part of the
having a child process sound appealing to him.
That was just..
repulsive.
The only thing that had changed was perhaps his willingness to suffer through it. Whereas before it would’ve been a
hell no, he supposed he could manage
it, for the reward that would be the children, now. Especially since his discomfort would be over much more quickly in comparison to Siyet's.
In no way did he like that, either. He’d seen how much it had affected Finley, and it hurt to know
he’d be the reason Siyet would have to suffer through things like that. It would be worth it, for the kids - even Finley would probably say that, but.. that didn't stop him from wishing. All of the wishes in the world wouldn’t change the way nature had decided things worked for their kind, though. So.. if Siyet really was willing to go through with two moons of discomfort, he could manage a few minutes.
(This post was last modified: Feb 01, 2023, 07:03 AM by Jethro.)