He was gone.. Gone. In her mind she accepted the simple fact of Camio's absence, but her heart had not and fought her every step of the way. Each day was overshadowed with a fear and anticipation, a deep longing that slowed minutes into days. Time healed some but it could not fix all. She tried to surrender herself to the admission that there was absolutely nothing she could do about it, that whatever had happened, had happened. But admitting such a thing meant that she had given up on Camio, his life, his continued existence. Her heart shuddered at the thought.
Nova needed to free her mind, and as always the solitude of nature brought her peace. The nip of cool autumn air on her nose, piles of fallen golden leaves, the toasted brown caps of mushrooms, where all small wonders that kept her focused and grounded to the present. She had left the territory that morning on a simple walk, leaving @Nalda in the pack's care with a promise to @Iopah to return by nightfall. She hadn't planned on doing much on her hike but was pleasantly surprised to come across a massive lake.
She looked out across the smooth water tinted grey by clouds above, eyeing the tree-topped mounds that perched right on top of the lake like little turtles. She set her sights on the closest one, pacing the shore a few times as she tried to decide if she could make the swim or whether it would even be worth it. From where she stood it looked quite close, surely no more than a ten minute swim, and finally curiosity won out. She stepped into the water, wincing at the cold that seeped into her fur, covering her paws, her ankles, her knees. She drew a gasp as the icy water embraced her body as she waded further in, but webbed paws continued to push against the pebbly lake-bed until they could no longer reach. Methodically she paddled, a sort of peaceful meditation overtaking her in the monotony of it, the grey clouds scuttling calmly overhead.
Things began to sour as a wind whipped up, stirring the water into peaks that slapped ruthlessly at her exposed face and shoulders. Her limbs burned and her breath could barely keep up with how much she was exerting herself just to stay above the surface. Despite how long she had been swimming -- certainly much more than her ten minute estimate -- it really didn't seem she was getting any closer to the island, but a glance back at shore showed her she had indeed swam fairly far out. The little boulder that had been sitting on the shore was now merely a grey speck.
It was then Nova realized her critical error. It was no tiny, nearby island she had set her sights on, but rather a much larger one impossibly far out. The panic began to creep in. She was too far from land! Once methodical motions grew increasingly frantic, her paws slapping at the water as she fought through the growing waves. Her dreams of the island were abandoned, and she tried to anchor her gaze to the little grey boulder on the shore but each wave threatened to throw her off course. It was like the lake itself had decided to try to shove her under, and she fought against the water that threatened to fill her nose and mouth with each labored breath. She could hardly think straight through the panic. This couldn't be happening, it couldn't be, she chanted inside her head.
She felt herself lurch upwards, a sickening hesitation as the wave held her aloft, captive. As if taunting her, giving her a clear view of the shore. All she got out was a single desperate shriek before it crested, tossing her into the face of another swell. The world spun. Too much blue. Too much water. No air.