His heart beat loudly in his ears as he waited, forcing himself to keep still even as his paws ached to fidget before him. Really, he had made his decision long ago, on what to do once this day came, yet now that the word lay only moments away, he felt a dryness in his mouth and a lump in his throat. Really, this shouldn't be such a big deal; But it is, at least to me..! It was a turning point in his life, he had made it so.
After what felt like a small eternity, a familiar, dark silhouette appeared at the tree line. Drestig breathed in deeply, slowly letting the air back out while his eyes focused on Triell's approach. His stomach churned, and he found himself feeling sad that their meeting was of such a serious nature, in the end he cared for the younger man a great deal, and he would have liked to simply hat as friends. Maybe we can, A faint voice whispered in the back of his head; It doesn't have to be… But he pushed it aside. This was something he needed to do for himself; No more dawdling about! Still, as their eyes met, the older man had to swallow hard. Then Triell greeted him, and Drestig managed a weak smile in response to his; "You too." He said, voice low, and he really meant it. All this beating around the bush, riddled with anxiety had made him forget the most important thing: Triell was his friend, the one man he had managed to respect when he thought himself too good for any pack hierarchy. "Thank you for coming so quickly." The current leader added, more steadily, smile growing a little easier.
It didn't take much longer for Spieden to appear, loosening from the shadows of the forest like Triell had done, crossing towards them. Drestig turned his smile to her, curling his tail over his front paws like a feline and waiting for her to reach the two men, completing their circle of three. Her question wasn't exactly unwarranted, and the elder chap nodded, taking the cue to begin the meeting; "Well, a lot of things have happened lately. I thought it was about time we talked it all over…" He looked between the two of them, cocking a brow lightly; "Most prominently," His attention turned fully to the white breasted Tainn; "You've returned." He stalled, eyes flickering for a moment as he tried to gather up his thoughts; And courage…
Finally, he sighed lightly and met the other man's eyes, deciding to simply get right down to it: "So I guess the question is: do you want your post back?" He allowed a pause, straightening his back as he stared down the larger male. Then he smiled shakily, averting his eyes, a wrinkle forming between them, even as he offered Triell a yielding nod, reaching to touch his nose to the base of the younger lad's yaw, in a sign of honor and affection. "Oak Tree Bend is your pack, Triell, you and your family's. If you want it back I won't stand in your way." He pulled back, giving a warm smile to his, now long time, friend. Then his face fell into more serious folds; Now comes the hard part. The silver dusted man cleared his throat, again looking between the two leaders before him; "But if you do," He breathed in deeply; "I won't be staying." There, it was said. His face remained as stone, gaze shifting between Spieden and Triell. This was the decision he had made, not to pressure the Tainn with an ultimatum, but because he needed to do what was right for him; I only have so much time left…
Feeling the need to explain further, the Avalon allowed the shadow of a fresh smile to sneak onto his face, voice calm, almost serene as he spoke: "I can't go back to being a subordinate – to anyone. I've gotten a taste of what it's truly like to be a leader, and not just my own." Passion sparkled in his fiery eyes, tail waving fervently at his hocks; "I was borne for this, it's a dream I need to realize."
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