<blockquote>♫<i>How can I decide what's right, when your clouding up my mind? I can't win your losing fight all the time. Nor could I ever own what's mine when your always taking sides, but you won't take away my pride. No not this time. How did we get here, when I used to know you so well? How did we get here? Well I think you know. The truth is hiding in your eyes, and it's hanging on your tongue. Just boiling in my blood, but you think that I can't see what kind of man that you are. If your a man at all. Well I will figure this one out on my own. I'm screaming, I love you so, on my own. But my thoughts you can't decode. How did we get here. I think I know. Do you see what we've done? We're gonna make such fools of ourselves. There is something I see in you, it might kill me, I want it to be true.♫ - Decode by Paramore</i>
The reappearing of Vlar, and the news of a rogue pack of wolves attacking Ruiko's brother had increased her number of patrols. It was something she needed to do, and to a point it eased her mind, thinking if disaster were to happen she might be able to intercept. Despite that there was the edge of doubt clinging in the back of her mind feeling whatever she tried was a hopeless cause. She was only one wolf, and could not check every inch of ground that encircled the hollow while also keeping track of children's were abouts. The little whispers of winter only further tore at her core wondering if they would all have enough to eat, how much snow would pile in the forest. She long recalled how she could not imagine being a leader, yet here she was doing the task, fussing over everything, worried about everyone. It might not have been so much if her children's lives were not in her paw, or if she could share the burden. She could did not trust anyone to stand by her...not anymore. And who would want too?The idea had been in her head, she needed someone, but she was not quite ready.
She stretched her tired frame, and opened her jaws in a wide yawn. After a short rest, she was ready to head out once more. Night time seemed a far better time to check things, least than she would know the children were sleeping, and it seemed more likely mischief would happen in the darkness, rather then broad daylight. She did not trust Vlar, and believed she would come back. Maybe not for a time, but one day she would, and she would be ready.
A look to the familiar dwelling, she trapped the air in her chest and released it in a harsh sigh. This was who she was now, and she'd make the best of it. One final look to the resting pup's direction, she started to jog to where the lines of Grizzly Hollow ended.
There wasn't anything catching her attention, though relief was evident in her very stride the further she went. She would at a time glance to the stars, but she didn't stare long. She branched out further when she heard the battered questions because they were nothing like as song nor close, they reminded her more like a cry of hurt. Something in them struck a cord within her, though she didn't know why. All she knew was someone was in her home, and her pale hair bristled along her spine feeling what peace she had stolen again. her senses on alert, ears rotated trying to pick just where the wolf would be, and with no hesitation she honed in on the sound, wondering what this intruder wanted.
At frist her eyes did not first see anyone in dark shadows, and she bagan to wonder if now her mind was slipping when she saw an obscure figure before her. Triangle points pinned, and a warning growl vibrated her throat speaking clearly she was not pleased about the late disturbance. </blockquote>