It had been three days since her fight with Eskil, and she'd been traveling northeast ever since. She'd taken things at a rather slow pace, too overwhelmed with her emotions to think about much else than what a complete and utter moron she was. She hadn't cried - there was no need to, really - but she wasn't positive that she was ever going to see her friend again. The nearly-overwhelming feeling of sadness matched the heat running through her pelt, but it also overrode it in priority, pushing the itch to the back of her mind. Her logical side was trying to tamper down both of the conflicting emotion and physical problems she was experiencing, but it wasn't doing well at its job.
The young woman took a deep breath and walked alongside the river to her right - Heartleaf Creek. The babbling water with slush on its banks was doing well to create some type of noise and give the colorless wolf something else to focus on. Icy silver-blue eyes scanned the icy blue water as she walked, her tail low and her ears pressed miserably to her skull. Caught between the burn in her body and the turmoil in her soul when she knew she should be ruled by her mind.
None of it matched up with how she had been raised. Her mother would be ashamed.
But then, her mother had been ripped apart by the alphas of her pack as a show of dominance and power, in order to strike fear into the hearts of all of her packmates and keep them in line. Shows where that got her.
Another sigh fell from her lips as she lay down on her stomach beside the brook, touching her muzzle lightly to the half-frozen water around the edges. The cool felt good on her stomach, satiating some of the burn running rampant in her system and helping her feel at least fractionally better. Not completely, of course, but slightly. She looked at her reflection in the rippling water and stood up, anger at... well, at everything, igniting in her chest as she got all four paws underneath her.
"Fuck me!" she shouted, voice catching slightly at the end, the self-loathing becoming too overwhelming to bear for just the briefest of moments. She squeezed her eyes shut, her entire body trembling with the effort of trying to contain all of the misery and fury and frustration building up within her.
She was glad no one was around to see her weakness.