This is how it was going to end for the woman in white. Alone, a skeleton of her former self ready to disintegrate upon itself with the most delicate of touches. These oppressive thoughts echoed in her skull as the little mass of weight she had left maneuvered over the frozen ground of the lake she some how managed to find after traveling through a path in the mountain she was sure would be her personal tomb. Apparently she was allowed to live one more day, but how much longer could she press her luck in living to see another sunrise? It seemed that over the past five years of her life she was only skating by at the bare minimum and the yarn that made up the rope of life was dwindling down to its final strands. Time was running out. And so was the daylight as her bi-colored eyes focused on the fading shades of blue that blanketed the sky, the beginning of night hot on its tail with shades of dark navy and the first hints of stars beginning to dot the heavens above. Soon the temperature would drop drastically from the lack of heat the light of day offered and anything not tucked safely in the warmth of their den would be left to face the chill of night.
The constant aching of hunger gnawing on her stomach distracted her from that thought momentarily as her paws moved silently within the harsh shadows of the surrounding trees, pine to be exact by their rich 'clean' scent that permeated on the evening air. There was no way she could make a proper hunt attempt to quell her starvation, but if luck was watching over her then perhaps she could find tracks in the snow and follow them to a den of something edible. With the last of her strength available she could dig open the front door and close her jaws around the neck of a family of rabbits. Oh what fine cuisine a simple snowshoe hare had become to the scrawny woman. But the thought of doing the work was enough to exhaust her, limbs shaking in fatigue before giving out and sending her body into the powder beneath with a soft flop. Legs curled in on themselves her head rested without argument as the snow seeped its cold fingers into the thin hairs that lined her maw. This was utterly pathetic and in all honesty Hexamora was ashamed that she had let herself get to this point. Had she not been so prideful and been smart she could have been nice and plump in the den of some pack until winter released its hold on the world and spring came to melt away the snow. Then she could have left never to return to whatever pack she pretended to swear her loyalty to and lived life on a healthier level than the pathetic state she was in now. What good was she now that her body had become so emaciated?
A low growl rumbled within her throat at herself. No, she wouldn't accept defeat yet. As long as there was still fight in her there was still life. "Get up you lazy bag of bones." she grumbled with a voice so foreign sounding from its lack of proper use in recent days. The Beauvau woman was not one to talk to herself in imaginary conversations while traveling alone. Forcing her slender legs to prop up she fought with all her might to try and rise her form from the slush beneath her. It was a shaky start, but slowly her body lifted inch by inch until she was standing on all fours again with her paws sprawled out like a newborn fawn learning to stand for the first time. Heavily her sides rose and fell in her attempt to catch her breath from the exertion of standing. How crazy that a simple action such as standing now seemed to zap what little energy she had when she use to do it without much thought. She was like a pup all over again. A larger, equally as weak and vulnerable pup. Swinging her head from right to left she scanned the landscape for signs of anyone spectating her pitiful struggle in the shadows. No scent nor sound reached her small rounded ears other than the heavy gasps of her breathing and crunch of snow beneath her pads as she constantly shifted them to hold up her body. So much for wanting to try and find food. Surely if she dared to lift a paw and take a step forward she would only collapse back into the snow, returning to point A after barely reaching point B. Now what would she do?
Try to move. She had to try and move or else she ran the risk of becoming frozen in place and then she would have a ton of fun trying to stand up after her knees buckled then. There would be no strength to use and with the coming of night her body would be as good as kibble to whatever predator happened to prowl by and decide to make a quick snack out of her remaining slabs of meat. Frustration welled up inside as she forced her paws to listen to her commands and shift forward. At first they listened but then her strength began to wane again, making it near impossible to take more than a handful of steps. Tilting her head up to the sky that now held more tiny dots of light where the stars belonged a howl erupted from her throat singing of her frustration and despair while also hoping it would reach the ears of someone near by and either come to her rescue or put the final words in the book of Hexamora. Her fate hung in the balance as mismatched eyes lowered back to the earth, rump thumping into the slush of her meager progress. She couldn't hold her body weight anymore and it felt so good to only hold her upper body up. And much easier as well. Sit. This. This she could do for awhile while waiting for someone to come across her ivory self.
"Speech."