Karpos had taken to scouting out the surrounding lands to what he now was supposed to call home. The truth was he had only ever had one home, the others were prisons in his mind. Hollowheart Keep had been great until the incident but it lacked a certain relaxed feeling that he needed and Cut Rock River was fantastic, everything he could have wanted... except it wasn't Pitch Pine Trail. It wasn't the pack belonging to him by blood right and it wasn't the lands that his father had claimed as a safe haven for him. Nothing mattered to him more than his pack at that time, the one he had yet to create. He felt distant like he was not a part of the civilization that he was supposed to call family and home. Perhaps he wasn't. All he knew was Jynx had been silent with him for three months at least now and he had no idea why. He felt chopped off from the rest of the world and he did not take his isolation well.
He had thoughts, dangerous thoughts, that made it harder to sleep at night and he found himself avoiding the rest of the pack. Something was clearly bothering him but it was not like the others cared. He kept his head down and remained silent, which was strange for him. His big mouth had gotten him into so much trouble. He had started to blame himself for all that had happened. He blamed himself for his father's death and the disappearance of his sister as if he drove her away. He blamed himself for Thorpe's death because if he hadn't blown up at Aponi, then maybe he could have been there to save his mentor's life. He blamed himself for being stupid enough to follow the Aquila girl around. He had examined everything for it's level of floccinaucinihilipilification and found himself to be high on the list.
He was stupid and foolish and now he knew it.
The chocolate boy canvased the Palisade to find some place where he could hide away from the rest of the world - his little safe haven. He desperately craved it, his mind going into overdrive as he looked for it because if he found it, he might never have to return to the world of politics and scandals that he found his life to be.
Perhaps he should bow out now to stop the suffering he seemed to cause with others. Perhaps he should leave the Lore and find himself before he tried to revive his father's legacy.