Many thoughts had gone through her mind as he relayed to her the things that he had done. They were horrible things she wouldn't deny it but at the same time she didn't hate him for them. She didn't want to leave him and never return. Instead she wanted to stay, for so long she had held out hope that he would return for her, he had been there for her even before he had disappeared. She wouldn't and couldn't leave him now not when she cared so much for him. What he told her caused her to question herself and the things she'd thought in the past. Was there a small part in her that was capable of the season things as him? If given the chance would she have gone through the the things that had run through her mind on more than one occasion?
He had brought attention to his scars as he spoke, she had noticed them the first time she had seen him after he found her. She was angry about them, that someone could do that to him but they had never changed the way she saw him. To her they weren't there but in this moment she felt it all the more important that he knew she saw them and to know how she felt about those that had put them there but mostly she wanted him to know that they didn't bother her.
He backed away from her then, she didn't follow allowing him the space he needed. This moment between them was one of the most important ones they'd ever had. She could feel it just as she could feel the warmth of the sun on her back. Leotie wanted to make sure that she helped him understand that he wasn't going anywhere and that no matter what he did in his past or what he might do in the future she wasn't going anywhere.
Once she realized that she too might have a darkness inside her Leotie had admitted it to him. She of course had never done anything like he had. She supposed she would always question if she would have had the opportunity arrived. After catching that female at the border Leotie believed more now that she could have done what she thought about doing in the past.
In the long stretch of time between her last words and when he finally spoke Leotie watched him for any clue about what he was thinking. She gave his question some thought because she could tell.it was an important answer. “We are the products of our Environment and we are neither completely good nor completely bad,” she said stepping toward him and licking his tears from his face. “There is good and bad in both of us Sven just different levels. This, the things you have done are all because of what others have done to you. It is how we survive this life. How we make sense of the things that happen to us and how we cope. It makes us wolves trying to get through life the best way we know how.” She hoped her answer would give him some comfort.
Leotie had thought about how her life had changed since those days of living in a house with humans to living in the lore. How she had changed over her time in the wild and was now capable.of things she hadn't thought she would've been before. Could she one day be capable of the same things as Sven the longer she stayed in the lore. Had the things she had seen and done made her more capable to do horrible things? She had seen a lot in her time in the lore and been through alot and she knew that she had changed to survive in this world.
“Then help me understand how terrifying they are for you.”