<blockquote>Hocus knew he shouldn't be out here again so soon, but he just felt so drawn to this place. In all of their brief journey, Hocus hadn't found a single moment of calm, except when they were by this lake. Had that been the moment they had decided to go home? Hocus couldn't remember, only that Trisden had changed. She didn't need him any more, she'd outgrown what he could tell her, in his stumbling ignorance. He'd barely been able to protect her from what she could see on their way home, let alone what she hadn't seen. But did she acknowledge his usefulness there? No. Only Kiche or their mother could help her with what she had seen. Well, that was fine by Hocus.
He followed the river south, out of the forest and once again away from home. It felt weird to be travelling this way again so soon, when he had sworn he would never again leave the den, with its comfort and warmth. Had that been what had caused him to be so derided by Trisden? Was he just too soft and fluffy? 'Cirrus' seemed an apt name for something fluffy, harmless and docile.
The river curved into the lagoon and Hocus found himself navigating down a steep embankment that Trisden had struggled stubbornly with for hours. Her paws had been scratched and scraped to ruin when she was done. Dammit, did every memory have to be about her? Wasn't he allowed to have his own? When Borden ran off, had Hocus chased after him? And Prosper? Theo's ghost was no doubt out there, but had Hocus run to help him? No, no and no. But Trisden? He flattened every speedbump, counselled every decision, found the warmth, shared his kills. The reward? Rejection, silence, the same-old mockery.
Anger boiled in Hocus over the days of his pilgrimage so that, by the time he reached the open lagoon, he was bitter and irritable. Even the water, ever the mirror, served to show him how angry he was. The pool was dark and endless, but when Hocus disturbed it with an angry swipe, it wouldn't stop rippling, reflecting the fiery setting sun.
Hocus sat back on his haunches and moodily looked out at his ruined meditation location. Even here she was disrupting his peace.</blockquote>