I really don't get how you put up with me, Grey. ;~;
It was not the reaction the dark girl had expected. Some hint of defiance perhaps, or outrage that a mere lanky youth like her was spying on him (for that was what she had, nor had she lied about it), but not.. this, whatever it was. Her burnished eyes widened slightly, a startling display of emotion coming from such a dark-hearted and controlled creature, and she watched, incredulous, as he stammered an apology. What for? Intruding? She didn't live near here. No one did, no one of the wolf world with a pack to speak of anyway; perhaps bobcats or cougars lurked, but they were not part of wolf society. Yet here he was, apologizing, and Aiyana tilted her head slightly sideways, watching him, impassive again. Would more come, an explanation, or simply the statement of where he came from? She was willing to wait in silence, bask in her element as he weighed the options, waiting for his decision.. patient like the trees themselves.
He settled for talking, and her ears gave a polite twitch, sweeping forward again. In spite of herself, she was interested in his tale, in what had befallen him, to make him look so worn and tired.. what was important enough to him to make him push himself to the brink of exhaustion, to the point that he cried out from the toll it was taking on stiffening, aging muscles? For suddenly she knew, this was no young wolf, just like Marsh had not been young; silver hairs had flecked the tip of his red muzzle, and while it was less noticeable in Borden's cream mask.. it was there, too gray to fit the tan.
But he spoke of loss, the loss of his daughter, and Aiyana found herself looking away, her eyes hard as they scored the shadows. If looks could kill, the mountains would crumble. For a moment it enraged her, that he spoke of losing a daughter, when she had the gaping hole left by her sister still flapping like a void in her chest – and somehow, she felt betrayed by the truth. The anger rose like a sudden flame inside, and died just as quickly, leaving her hollow and aching. Triell had taught her long ago that she was not alone in her pain. For what they had shared, Borden might as well have been her father – the father Indru had never been, she thought bitterly. The father Ice had tried to be, but eased into too late. The only one he had saved was Fenru, wasn't it? Fenru, and the future.
But not Aiyana's future. Swift River held only an empty ache for her, something she saw in the shadows of their eyes, and she knew it. She knew it, but she doubted they did.
"Perhaps she's dead." She spoke bitterly, feeling the venom of it on her tongue, and her steeled eyes fell upon his. For a heartbeat her shield against the world held, all the pent-up frustration at the damned hand of fate, taking not only her brother but her sister... But then she crumbled, a low whine escaping her throat as ears flattened and she once again looked aside, shadowy tail drooping between her legs. It was not his fault; he did not deserve her pain. "At least, that is what happened to my sister when she went missing," she amended quietly, as if it could somehow change things, once again smooth over her fluctuation in temperament – why did she bristle one moment, only to regret it and not wish harm upon him in the next? Truly, words were dangerous things, and she was not sure if she wanted to speak more, but...
"My father," she spat the word, refusing to acknowledge Indru with love, "left when autumn had barely begun, taking our brother with him." She blinked, felt words roll in her mouth she was not sure she should speak; hesitantly, she flicked her eyes up to his. Grey, worried.. Grey.. and they had worried about her, too, for no real reason. She ran her tongue against her teeth, then wondered if this was not what words were for, stupid admissions and.. wishes, hopes, thoughts. The things that were harder to express with a flick of the tail. Finally, she caved in again, worried simply because it almost felt good to talk.. like draining an old wound. The words came in a murmur, quiet but clear, her bright gaze upon his face, wanting to see his expression even as it made her feel foolish, and childish. Almost ashamed.
"You seem to be what a real father should be."
midnight + Aiyana = weird trains of thoughts, and kind of disjointed observations xD