She barely heard the first words that escaped the males sunlit muzzle. Though the words did register blankly within her mind. Though she turned her head ever so slightly at his next words. "everyone has their ups and downs, it's just your turn is all..."
"I've had quite a few ups and downs in my life..." She sighed then turned fully to see Adair sitting not too far away. It was then that the breeze picked up, waving her silver guard hairs and catching the whiskers on her muzzle. Briefly her mind registered the scent of rabbit on the breeze. Though she had no blood lust or hunger to drive her forward to catch the thing. Luckily for the rabbit.
"it'll all come together soon enough, besides, you have a whole pack that adores and respects you, we'll help you through the pain..." Adair's words had her thinking. Did the pack really respect her? Or did they dutifully follow along simply because she was currently a lead wolf? Then again there were only a few members left a part from the new recruits Klio, Kassander, and Adair. All of the others had stayed with her during the big split. Even Ash, whom she hadn't liked too much before, had backed her and shown his worth. Nari was thinking much more of the lead male even though he did seem to have a stick up his tail most of the time. She had seen moments where he was kind. Her sons backed her of course, that loyalty between family and blood had held strong. However Nari knew well that one day both boys might ask to leave. With a bitter heart she would let them go, which would leave her with even fewer wolves she could truly trust and respect.
Maybe I should have bred this year? she regretted quietly within her mind even though the reason she hadn't had pups was because she was still waiting loyally for her mate to come back. Her nose wrinkled at the thought. He isn't coming back... If he had been stuck someplace during winter he would have found his way back by the beginning of summer. She felt her heart snap and a growl echo in her chest. He had promised to be there with her forever and now he was gone.
Nari had missed Adair's earlier comment whilst lost in her thoughts, but her attention was brought back to the tall male sitting close by as he spoke lastly. "Besides guarding the borders I'm an excellent listener and I give decent advice, but your secret will be safe with me..." She listened to the tones of his voice not sure why he would want to listen to her problems.
Should she dare trust him? When all others had lost her trust and respect in various ways? A part from maybe her children and Ash.
He deserves my trust and respect as a pack mate... She told herself while glancing back to the male once more. Gingerly the she wolf picked herself half off the ground then lay her body fully upon the bed of flowers nearer to the Asherdu wolf.
"My mate disappeared during the beginning of winter, and I've searched for him for so long. I had hoped he would return during the spring when the snow melted thinking that he could have been stuck someplace out there unable to return.." She paused wondering how Adair would react to that news. Her eyes had steadily closed as the queen spilled to him her worries. "I'm not sure what to do about him... Should I take my maiden name back? Should I keep searching as my hope that he's alive dwindles? Or should I simply move on and keep his name? I have no idea..." She fessed up with her main concerns, though her daughters death was also heavy upon her mind. Maybe if he had been here, he might have helped me keep an eye on our daughter and she wouldn't be dead... Her thoughts strangled the she wolf from within as Nari lay at the paws of Adair trusting him with her woes.