you do not know who is your friend or who is your enemy until the ICE breaks. Damn, and he ducked his head just a little, trying to bring up his foreleg to hide behind as Triell flinched. The mirth that had begun to creep through his body faded into something that was just as awkward and embarrassed as guilty, ashamed. Why on earth had he done that? Of course a wolf would react if you stared at it, stupid, stupid, stupid Ice. Berating himself he peered at the male again when he spoke, but made no move to reply, all he did was give him a very quick grin, too far gone for it to be studied and found crumbling at the seams. He wasn't certain at all of how to behave or how to react, and for a moment it nearly freaked him out as his thoughts became all haywire and ran rampant. To say something now would be stupid, for he had no coherent words flowing through his head, and so he clamped his jaws forcibly shut to keep it from spilling out. Instead, he tried to find something to hold on to in the vortex of his brain, looking for the steadiness he'd had mere moments before - an island in a raging sea, a rock in the storm... Where had it gone? Away, away; as his eyes watched the water without seeing, he tried to probe some sort of order into his own head. Often he found himself locked in these moments when he had no clue what to do, and nothing to say either, when he didn't know what to think or what to do to stop himself from analyzing his misbehavior. He guessed it was the price to pay when you had a rusty mind and had lived alone for too long. Somewhere deep down you knew how to act, and did it when required, but the mind did not actively know. It questioned, shouted why and really, with as little social interaction as Ice had had, it was no wonder that he was socially incompetent.
He was glad that Triell didn't deem him a queer fool for his offer, and once he realized that his eyes were on the water, he snapped them up and back to the male. Briefly, he rested his gaze on that black face, and bobbed his head. Ruiko, Kinis, Volkan. While two were brothers, one was a friend, and though he hadn't caught the slight pause before the word, he did understand the way he laid weight on the name. Somehow, it seemed like she was the most important one of the three. He guessed he'd remember the name Ruiko because he'd heard it thrice or something, Kinis he'd likely forget in a minute, but Volkan he shoved into his memory, ramming it in between other tidbits of facts. Even if his adventure south turned nothing up, he could always run around and ask others if they'd met this Volkan or had any news of her whereabouts. He wasn't certain why, but for some reason he knew it'd please him immensely to find her and reunite her and Triell. Despite how much of a fool Ice was when it came to socialization, he still clung on to the notion that he liked this black male, and to do something nice for someone.. well, it would be nice.
But then he laughed.
Ice was quite far from a pachyderm, and at the sound of Triell's laughter he flinched visibly. He wasn't unused to people finding his rambles amusing, Indru had radiated it when they'd met the first time, but somehow the open laughter.. he wasn't prepared. His mind ran straight back into its dizzying pattern of thoughts, analyzing, picking his words apart, where did it go wrong, what did I say, what did I do. Steadying, the large male perched kind of nearly leaning away, trying to chase the wariness away. He's a friend, he's a friend, he's a friend, he tried to tell himself, but he wasn't socialized enough to read the nuances of laughter even if he himself could use them - after all, he'd laughed, in a good way, at Triell. But when someone else did it.. how does on tell one type of laughter from another? Worried, anxious, Ice sat and watched the black male shake with his mirth, eventually wiping his eyes on a slim black leg. Even though he wasn't laughing anymore, he was grinning, and as he spoke Ice searched his face. He could find no hint of malice there, so.. perhaps.. perhaps it was all good.
Then Triell gave him a shoulder bump, but Ice had already been sitting with a compromised balance. The sudden push made him yelp and nearly fall, but he managed to get halfway onto his feet and steadying. For a moment he held still in that ridiculous pose, watching the creek. Then, he gave his head a shake and sank down again. "Water is bad," he muttered, tilting his head as he watched Triell. Corinna had never been mean to him or anything, but it was just.. the sharpness of her green eyes. "I think she thinks I'm stupid or something," he said miserably, sighing and thinking back on their first meeting. Well, if she thought that, she wasn't entirely wrong, and sometimes he was certainly .. different. And, well, if swimming was so awesome... His eyes narrowed a fraction. If it had been anything but winter, he wouldn't have hesitated to shove Triell into the shallow creek, but as it was, he refrained. He shrugged the impulse off, eyes returning to normal, and sought for words he could not find. Awkward silence was all that came from him, and with pleading eyes he waited for Triell to save him. .ice aesir |